07-08-2016, 04:12 PM
(07-08-2016, 03:38 PM)ALI6NMENT Wrote: Yeah I know, but too late now. I was so horny nothing could of stopped me , especially as I am on a stricked no fap policy.
I didn't go all the way, just an exotic massage with a blissful ending lol, I won't do it again though. I think when it gets crazy, I will just have to fap so I don't do anything crazy.
I would have NEVER done this before, I don't know what is going on, I an changing but ....not sure I like THIS change.
I definitely prefer intamecy with a girl, I seriously don't think just sex with a girl is what I want.
What can I say, sex is not enough for me. Love connection is where it's at for me, if you have never experienced it you won't understand what I mean.
If I didn't just do what I did, I wouldn't have had the contrast to see what I really want.
I would say that "nofap" means "no orgasm" because ANY orgasm produces the same results. Mastubating to porn has a different effect, but the orgasm is always the same regardless in how it affects your body. So having someone come give you a happy ending is still the same thing. Just you're pretending that it's somehow different because you didn't do it to yourself. Masturation, sex, and happy endings are all the exact same thing; the key is moderation and avoiding pornography.
I think basically what you're experiencing is a combination of the program flooding you with sexual energy, and you resisting part of the programming of the subliminal (the part that tells you to project that energy into the world around you, and cause sex with a woman to happen thereby).
Turning off the sex drive is a cop out. It's there because you need it. You just have to learn how to deal with it properly. You seem to have some issues that aren't finished being cleared yet.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!