03-14-2016, 08:29 AM
day 19 stage 1
The manifestation seems to kick in. had an encounter with an girl at the store who said in an very submissive way hi to me, smiling. She was pretty cute. She stood out in some way which could be the next step basically. Stuck around for a while in my head but I can easily move on. had some thought afterwards about how I wouldnt normally do with the approach thing, compimenting and all that stuff, number closing, yet this didnt occur in the moment.
2 other girls at work showed interest. One walked up to me to introduce herself and stood next to me, giving multiple glances, smiles and what not. It started when I walked in, she directly turned her head and noticed. had some chat with the other girl who did smile aswell. The first girl asked several questions, and then old beliefs surfaced and other question thoughts popped up in terms of showing to much interest and what not. The moment of escalation only goes as far until sexual tension dissolves. the window kind of thing.
Some people seem to test me. or rather, show an mismatch through bodylanguage and talking. something feels off which sets me off aswell to an slight extent. People turn heads or Obvious look away. I hold eye contact with people, including the girl when we did talk, which made her light up. It feels rather natural and to be expected, Like an self/fulfilling prophecy.
Women become more and more an normal event in my life. Lots of them today. makes me wonder if AM causes this as an conscious proof over and over again to desensitize or kill the beta inside. I dont care, just riding the sub. Seeing the same kind of blondes around with glasses and the such, yeah i dig that.
The manifestation seems to kick in. had an encounter with an girl at the store who said in an very submissive way hi to me, smiling. She was pretty cute. She stood out in some way which could be the next step basically. Stuck around for a while in my head but I can easily move on. had some thought afterwards about how I wouldnt normally do with the approach thing, compimenting and all that stuff, number closing, yet this didnt occur in the moment.
2 other girls at work showed interest. One walked up to me to introduce herself and stood next to me, giving multiple glances, smiles and what not. It started when I walked in, she directly turned her head and noticed. had some chat with the other girl who did smile aswell. The first girl asked several questions, and then old beliefs surfaced and other question thoughts popped up in terms of showing to much interest and what not. The moment of escalation only goes as far until sexual tension dissolves. the window kind of thing.
Some people seem to test me. or rather, show an mismatch through bodylanguage and talking. something feels off which sets me off aswell to an slight extent. People turn heads or Obvious look away. I hold eye contact with people, including the girl when we did talk, which made her light up. It feels rather natural and to be expected, Like an self/fulfilling prophecy.
Women become more and more an normal event in my life. Lots of them today. makes me wonder if AM causes this as an conscious proof over and over again to desensitize or kill the beta inside. I dont care, just riding the sub. Seeing the same kind of blondes around with glasses and the such, yeah i dig that.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus