day 51 ( 45 days remain + ? )
Im feeling really calm right now but focussed and well collected right now. No doubt the sub is working on the background as i sense it still.
One thought that popped up was "all should be discussed no matter what"throwing me naked and in the open of debate and what not. Im picky still to where I will put my attention to and can become quite cocky.
I view myself as some roman/greek statue aesthetic kind off. Unsure if it makes sense but I gravitate towards that. I am ever changing. opposing myself even more towards neediness. Liberating it is. Did start yesterday some economic discussion. My mind is changing, growing, questioning, developing and moving beyond. Dont fill your brain with all kind of ideas, Ignite it instead. ofcourse there may be philosophic gravitations, It all open field.\
My anxiety is litterally gone now. It clicks directly and removes whatever may pop up creating an gap to be honest, shattering. People like it, I like it. It triggers me somewhat into an seduction state aswell with strong escalation impulses, but when in the presence of woman its like that, almost an flock or something, no neediness whatsoever, putting me in the centre. hard to explain. An sort of disconnection and change in order.
Other times I appear very reserved but my eye contact is very intense.
My self capability is unshakable yet I notice how people all think in limitations. "well thats an big step isnt it?" its really small thinking, lacking vision. I can do anything i want. there is nothing that stops me. Why creating "such small things while able to dream big and get it? While not setting your self up for excellence and full trust in your own capabilities. The sub also set my attention to what is relevant and seems to block (?) out other stuff? Putting me on some productive road. ASC seem to remove all blocks and create an abundance mindset and lifestyle. Its liberating to dismiss and being able so, fully trusting in yourself.
Im reading Lionkings journal and the similarities are obvious for me. Same developments going on, lots of recognition. My attitude is getting very intense right this moment. Like it all cuts through whatever holds me back.
I also notice an adopting of ideas going on, perhaps triggers I dont know. Being outrageous is appealing right now.
Did aswell notice yesterday how people all walk with an bend back, face to the ground and the such. Their bodylanguage and how they carry themselves was telling. Not in my name.
people test my eye contact and it makes me very sure in myself. Like"i know myself now and will not flinch" just solid in bodylanguage aswell. Its automatic thought. Actively keeping eye contact now it clicked and is understood.
reframing situations are not needed anymore. it shatters and adjusts. Its confidence.
Ignite the flame, ignite the mind
Excellence.
Im feeling really calm right now but focussed and well collected right now. No doubt the sub is working on the background as i sense it still.
One thought that popped up was "all should be discussed no matter what"throwing me naked and in the open of debate and what not. Im picky still to where I will put my attention to and can become quite cocky.
I view myself as some roman/greek statue aesthetic kind off. Unsure if it makes sense but I gravitate towards that. I am ever changing. opposing myself even more towards neediness. Liberating it is. Did start yesterday some economic discussion. My mind is changing, growing, questioning, developing and moving beyond. Dont fill your brain with all kind of ideas, Ignite it instead. ofcourse there may be philosophic gravitations, It all open field.\
My anxiety is litterally gone now. It clicks directly and removes whatever may pop up creating an gap to be honest, shattering. People like it, I like it. It triggers me somewhat into an seduction state aswell with strong escalation impulses, but when in the presence of woman its like that, almost an flock or something, no neediness whatsoever, putting me in the centre. hard to explain. An sort of disconnection and change in order.
Other times I appear very reserved but my eye contact is very intense.
My self capability is unshakable yet I notice how people all think in limitations. "well thats an big step isnt it?" its really small thinking, lacking vision. I can do anything i want. there is nothing that stops me. Why creating "such small things while able to dream big and get it? While not setting your self up for excellence and full trust in your own capabilities. The sub also set my attention to what is relevant and seems to block (?) out other stuff? Putting me on some productive road. ASC seem to remove all blocks and create an abundance mindset and lifestyle. Its liberating to dismiss and being able so, fully trusting in yourself.
Im reading Lionkings journal and the similarities are obvious for me. Same developments going on, lots of recognition. My attitude is getting very intense right this moment. Like it all cuts through whatever holds me back.
I also notice an adopting of ideas going on, perhaps triggers I dont know. Being outrageous is appealing right now.
Did aswell notice yesterday how people all walk with an bend back, face to the ground and the such. Their bodylanguage and how they carry themselves was telling. Not in my name.
people test my eye contact and it makes me very sure in myself. Like"i know myself now and will not flinch" just solid in bodylanguage aswell. Its automatic thought. Actively keeping eye contact now it clicked and is understood.
reframing situations are not needed anymore. it shatters and adjusts. Its confidence.
Ignite the flame, ignite the mind
Excellence.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus