I've enjoyed reading your posts. They're very reflective and make me think.
In your very first post in this thread, you shared how you felt shame or guilt about being happy, and it touched me. I'm on E5, and happiness (so far) has not been a strong influence. When I used E2 years back, I was in my 3rd month, and suddenly I felt quite free to be happy. It was awesome. I thought it was Positive Thinking, Positive Attitude which had hit me.
But recently, I think I was wrong in that assessment. Guilt has always kept me unhappy, and I've spent a lot of my life trying to assuage it. My happiness shift on E2 seemed much more relevant to guilt removal, because not carrying that was a MAJOR change for me.
I've not crossed that plateau with E5 yet. I'm only 2 months in though. Still moving through some inner hang-ups.
Thanks for your clear writing here at IML. It encourages me.
In your very first post in this thread, you shared how you felt shame or guilt about being happy, and it touched me. I'm on E5, and happiness (so far) has not been a strong influence. When I used E2 years back, I was in my 3rd month, and suddenly I felt quite free to be happy. It was awesome. I thought it was Positive Thinking, Positive Attitude which had hit me.
But recently, I think I was wrong in that assessment. Guilt has always kept me unhappy, and I've spent a lot of my life trying to assuage it. My happiness shift on E2 seemed much more relevant to guilt removal, because not carrying that was a MAJOR change for me.
I've not crossed that plateau with E5 yet. I'm only 2 months in though. Still moving through some inner hang-ups.
Thanks for your clear writing here at IML. It encourages me.
I want to be FREE!
