03-24-2021, 08:22 AM
(03-24-2021, 07:19 AM)Shannon Wrote: The only thing I can say is, make sure you use the program correctly, and if you have some challenges, make sure you ask for help and suggestions. From your therapist or from us, as appropriate. Also, let your therapist know you're using this program. It may affect how s/he works with you; and if it works well for you, it may be helpful to others for your therapist to know this program exists.
Best wishes on your journey!
Will do! Thankyou! The only question I have is 3 loops a day -- Is that maximum or minimum or both? I feel drawn to listen more but if that's no good I will try not to.
Day 2
Just went grocery shopping and to the coffee shop
- Made deep eye contact with the coffee shop cashier, and asked her how her day was going. I often ask people how their day is going, but it felt like there was nothing holding me back, my gaze was total, and she lit up laughed/smiled.
- As I sat outside drinking my coffee, a pregnant woman walked up who I was very attracted to, and she kept looking over at me, and I was able to lock eyes with her repeatedly for a few seconds with zero fear. She kept looking over after that.
- Made strong eye contact with a girl on the street as I walked by and she waived shyly and said hello
- Said hello to a stranger as I passed just because
- Grocery shopping was disorienting because I just felt so at peace, I didn't even want to shop I just wanted to be there and walk around
- Flirted with the grocery store cashier, she came closer to me and we chatted for a minute. There was a definite attraction between us but I felt unsure about it so didn't push it. It did feel like if I was more sure, I could have. I can always go back I suppose
-It feels like I'm not thinking about WHAT to say at ALL, and I don't care if it's awkward, and both cashiers responded to that by making more conversation w me. This is very unusual for me because I'm super cerebral and think before acting usually (which stops me from acting). It seems that my body's tension response to perceived threat is much much reduced.
Not bad for my first trip outside the house using this sub
Wow. I know I'm in that "honeymoon" as I said before but, it is definitely something. Once I get used to this my posts will be less frequent. Keep in mind I've been doing affirmations about attracting women for a couple weeks (which I've now stopped) so some of this may be spillover from that. But they weren't working until I started this sub because the tension/resistance in my body was very strong. 
