08-22-2019, 12:22 PM
(08-22-2019, 09:08 AM)EvolvingPhoenix Wrote: Day 83:
Broke down and cried again while trying to play with my cat.
@GreenduckNo, they're not doing what they can. They're doing what they're willing to do. There's a difference, and I'm tired of everybody giving parents the undue credit of saying "they're doing their best" or "They did what they could do" when that's patently untrue. They COULD do more, they COULD do better, they COULD give it more effort, they COULD take more interest. But that would require more love than they have in their hearts. No they didn't do what they could. Not by a long-shot. Because they COULD have done a lot more, and didn't.
And yeah, I shouldn't give them the power of my healing because they'll do*****all with it, but don't give me this ***** that they did all they could do. They haven't earned the right to say that or have it rightfully said about them.
I’m not saying that to give them a free pass, I’m saying it to give you one. To go around feeling that you haven’t been given what you needed sucks, but it doesn’t help anyone. Forgiveness and understanding is the right path as long as you haven’t been abused. At least this have helped me, not to hold grudges. That only give away even more power. Give yourself the ability to forgive them and move past it.