06-16-2018, 06:05 AM
Stage 7, Day 25:
-Didn't plan to post on this journal again but there's something that I noticed here that I needed to speak on. Updates since last time pretty much are longer stares from women and better overall social interactions with people.
- People (especially women) have also been staring at me like an alien more often.
-There's been a time where I needed a coworker to translate on the phone for me. I notice she's been staring at me more. When she came to take the phone receiver out of my hand, she actually held and rubbed it a bit before taking the phone. She also was super busy, but instead of making me wait, she went out of her way to tell me she'd make time to help me, not in a bitchy kind of way, but in a way that she wanted me to know that it wasn't a problem to be kind to me.
-There's another coworker that literally said it's killing her that we haven't had a long talk in a while. She's also been complementing me on my looks and my laugh more.
-My wife's affections toward me have stopped but now she's acting sad, could just be something else on her mind.
-I'm having a harder time feeling emotions deeply this past week, and the week before that, my thoughts were mostly negative for days on end, and I didn't even care.
**Besides those, here's the insight, or rather testimonial I wanted to speak about. Right before I went to sleep last night, my best friend called me and told me his Grandmother died. He and I have been friends for almost 16 years, we're really more like brothers at this point, and his Grandmother was like a mom to me. Needless to say I took it hard and it was the first time in over a week I felt any deep emotion. The thing I picked up on is though, is that I only cried for a few minutes. My appetite and normal train of thought was shaken some too. After listening to AM6 overnight though, even though I still mourn her loss, I'm not an emotional wreck like I thought I would be. Even now, my eyes still water thinking of her. But other than that I feel almost negatively unaffected. I feel this speaks to the power of the emotional healing component of AM6 and it's even greater than I could have imagined. Of course I'm sure it'll hit my best friend harder, she may have been like a mother to me, but she took the place of his real mom who he never really got to know too well. I feel that even less than 12 hours of getting the news, I'm strong enough to help him through his own grief.**
-Didn't plan to post on this journal again but there's something that I noticed here that I needed to speak on. Updates since last time pretty much are longer stares from women and better overall social interactions with people.
- People (especially women) have also been staring at me like an alien more often.
-There's been a time where I needed a coworker to translate on the phone for me. I notice she's been staring at me more. When she came to take the phone receiver out of my hand, she actually held and rubbed it a bit before taking the phone. She also was super busy, but instead of making me wait, she went out of her way to tell me she'd make time to help me, not in a bitchy kind of way, but in a way that she wanted me to know that it wasn't a problem to be kind to me.
-There's another coworker that literally said it's killing her that we haven't had a long talk in a while. She's also been complementing me on my looks and my laugh more.
-My wife's affections toward me have stopped but now she's acting sad, could just be something else on her mind.
-I'm having a harder time feeling emotions deeply this past week, and the week before that, my thoughts were mostly negative for days on end, and I didn't even care.
**Besides those, here's the insight, or rather testimonial I wanted to speak about. Right before I went to sleep last night, my best friend called me and told me his Grandmother died. He and I have been friends for almost 16 years, we're really more like brothers at this point, and his Grandmother was like a mom to me. Needless to say I took it hard and it was the first time in over a week I felt any deep emotion. The thing I picked up on is though, is that I only cried for a few minutes. My appetite and normal train of thought was shaken some too. After listening to AM6 overnight though, even though I still mourn her loss, I'm not an emotional wreck like I thought I would be. Even now, my eyes still water thinking of her. But other than that I feel almost negatively unaffected. I feel this speaks to the power of the emotional healing component of AM6 and it's even greater than I could have imagined. Of course I'm sure it'll hit my best friend harder, she may have been like a mother to me, but she took the place of his real mom who he never really got to know too well. I feel that even less than 12 hours of getting the news, I'm strong enough to help him through his own grief.**