Day 15, off day as per ASRB 2.
Short update:
-Energy on this version has been great. No exhaustion to report. That in and of itself is my favourite improvement...that this doesn't suck the life out of me anymore. Any other "effects" are irrelevant to me compared to this. I'm thankful for this alone. That extreme, insane exhaustion robbed me of all the energy I needed to enjoy my life, it was a serious quality of life issue.
-In fact, if anything, I can go long periods without sleeping, like a day or so. Sometimes short sleep times of 4 hours have been occurring. Bit weird to have such an extreme turnaround. Although I have often done this normally, especially when I'm excited about learning new things (as elaborated on a bit below). I go on binges of it, for very long periods. It's a known habit of mine in such situations. Just good to see such an extreme change in energy because of the long term godlike exhaustion ruining everything forever...
-More looking into expansion of my business pursuits, researching taxes of several different ventures and implications. Learning from a few mentors in such areas to educate myself and improve knowledge in these new areas I wasn't experienced in. This excites me and makes me happy, I enjoy this. This should be a very big year for me in this regard, the biggest of my life! Big changes afoot now!
-Still feeling little to no real interest in women beyond a passing or glancing "she's hot" type of thing and just enjoying the hotness from afar at a distance and letting it be. Like I've been reporting for awhile now, months, they just seem so fickle and unreliable, a hindrance to me and my goals in life. I just fail to see the appeal and value they add anymore to me, that caused me to go SO far for them...for SO long. It all seems so lame and pathetic now, especially since all that time effort and money got me nothing in return. Felt this for a long time now, it seems to be continuing on this version. Maybe in time I'll meet a girl that will change my mind, but for now, the last thing I'm interested in is meeting tons of women for sex or dating or any other delusions of grandeur I used to have about this program. Both of which still seem light years away anyway so it doesn't feel like a difference to me in reality. But the mindset shift sure makes me feel more happy and content rather than always feeling like a failure for not having girls in my life etc. Ironic to have such a mindset develop on a program like this you might say, but it is what it is. I definitely was WAY more "hungry" for girls and their attention and validation, their sex and to get a girlfriend before ever running DMSI/AOSI. As time went on, I just started switching off from it all, I don't know if that's the "IDGAF", or me just figuring it isn't worth my time/effort/sanity to keep trying anymore. I can easily have great interactions with women, but I don't seem interested in trying for anything anymore, maybe I'm just fed up and burnt out with them. I know a bunch of "hot girls", but there just seems to be no interest to pursue or do anything oddly.
-Even me cruising social media for girls I know has stopped. Haven't logged in for two months. I admit I still view pics online of girls annoyingly. Also, I continue to masturbate at times somewhat randomly edge, sadly. Hopefully that can go away again, that was the second worst part of V3.1 for me, that becoming a problem for me again after STMA removed it. Exhaustion was obviously the biggest concern to me on V3.1. No issues with porn so far to report.
-Just feeling a general at peace, "good", stable feeling. Not really sure how to verbalise it. Even keeled, positive about my future with business and money, security through that. Self worth through that. Zero desire for "outcome" with girls so things are seamless when dealing with them because there's no "agenda", removes any anxiety and nervousness and trying to force interactions and rapport etc. Again, I'm still not seeing women as a part of my life in a marriage or girlfriend situation going forward which is odd to me. But I'm just reporting on what is there is all. I've even been looking at specifics of buying a couple eggs in a few years for having kids, to protect my rights and money and having kids at the same time. I've kinda thought about kids before this version...like it was off in the distance and vague...but lately it's become more of a serious thought on this version strangely. It's like the program is getting me to think about impregnating women as this only kicked up since starting V3.2, lol. More seriously, in this country especially, the laws are outrageous and stacked against men big time. I stand to lose tons of my hard-earned money in a divorce, even 50% of MY house that I bought and own and have all paperwork for, which is unfair, the works. Never mind the all powerful "abuse" line thrown out which ruins you and any standing you had otherwise. I've watched guys get destroyed by this country and it's anti-male laws. Seems too painful and risky given divorce rates and unfair laws, so sadly, I may be forced to go this route to protect myself and still continue the line someday. Insane a man in my situation, who should be able to choose from the pick of the litter to be 100% real, has to go SO far...just to get fairness and decency...by essentially cutting women out of the entire legal framework of a situation...really sad to see how things have gone. Anyway, this is rapidly becoming "non DMSI-related" and I hate derails
...moving on...
-Limited contact with girls on this version so far. Only 2 social events. Will be going to a third gathering tomorrow. But again, there's zero agenda to "do anything" there. If something relevant occurs, I'll report for R&D sake, but by no means am I going there thinking "oh DMSI may work now, I need to get chicks!!!". Interactions still feel the same to me, great flirty friendly stuff, but no real difference from V3.1 or movement beyond that point. Still feels there is a barrier between me and being a "hot guy" to them. Difference is, it just doesn't seem to matter to me anymore...I don't seem to care that much. Again, I can't tell if it's an "IDGAF", or if I'm just fed up with them and the failures and what not with them. It'd be cool to have a relationship someday, but I just don't seem to have the drive for it anymore for some reason. Maybe in time that'll change, who knows.
-Not really much else to report on this version besides what I've written. With how long it took for the version to come out finally, I did expect a lot more from it, I admit. Not design goal at all...but something more tangible externally to show me it's capable of such once and for all. We'll see I guess. I still do have severe doubts about this design goal actually working in reality for the majority and not guys already having some measure of success with women beforehand and/or in party situations with alcohol and drugs removing inhibitions, as has often been the case. Maybe it'll take another version or two for me to see something external that is clear and no doubt. I'll continue to use until the end of the line, regardless. Then after that, I'll re-evaluate, either going back to E2, or back to ASC 5G which was my first ever sub and made me a believer that these can actually work. Or I'll move onto other opportunities we'll see. Depends on how V3.3 and V3.4 and any others made after if so, function.
That's it for now, friends. I felt like it was time for an update.
Short update:
-Energy on this version has been great. No exhaustion to report. That in and of itself is my favourite improvement...that this doesn't suck the life out of me anymore. Any other "effects" are irrelevant to me compared to this. I'm thankful for this alone. That extreme, insane exhaustion robbed me of all the energy I needed to enjoy my life, it was a serious quality of life issue.
-In fact, if anything, I can go long periods without sleeping, like a day or so. Sometimes short sleep times of 4 hours have been occurring. Bit weird to have such an extreme turnaround. Although I have often done this normally, especially when I'm excited about learning new things (as elaborated on a bit below). I go on binges of it, for very long periods. It's a known habit of mine in such situations. Just good to see such an extreme change in energy because of the long term godlike exhaustion ruining everything forever...
-More looking into expansion of my business pursuits, researching taxes of several different ventures and implications. Learning from a few mentors in such areas to educate myself and improve knowledge in these new areas I wasn't experienced in. This excites me and makes me happy, I enjoy this. This should be a very big year for me in this regard, the biggest of my life! Big changes afoot now!
-Still feeling little to no real interest in women beyond a passing or glancing "she's hot" type of thing and just enjoying the hotness from afar at a distance and letting it be. Like I've been reporting for awhile now, months, they just seem so fickle and unreliable, a hindrance to me and my goals in life. I just fail to see the appeal and value they add anymore to me, that caused me to go SO far for them...for SO long. It all seems so lame and pathetic now, especially since all that time effort and money got me nothing in return. Felt this for a long time now, it seems to be continuing on this version. Maybe in time I'll meet a girl that will change my mind, but for now, the last thing I'm interested in is meeting tons of women for sex or dating or any other delusions of grandeur I used to have about this program. Both of which still seem light years away anyway so it doesn't feel like a difference to me in reality. But the mindset shift sure makes me feel more happy and content rather than always feeling like a failure for not having girls in my life etc. Ironic to have such a mindset develop on a program like this you might say, but it is what it is. I definitely was WAY more "hungry" for girls and their attention and validation, their sex and to get a girlfriend before ever running DMSI/AOSI. As time went on, I just started switching off from it all, I don't know if that's the "IDGAF", or me just figuring it isn't worth my time/effort/sanity to keep trying anymore. I can easily have great interactions with women, but I don't seem interested in trying for anything anymore, maybe I'm just fed up and burnt out with them. I know a bunch of "hot girls", but there just seems to be no interest to pursue or do anything oddly.
-Even me cruising social media for girls I know has stopped. Haven't logged in for two months. I admit I still view pics online of girls annoyingly. Also, I continue to masturbate at times somewhat randomly edge, sadly. Hopefully that can go away again, that was the second worst part of V3.1 for me, that becoming a problem for me again after STMA removed it. Exhaustion was obviously the biggest concern to me on V3.1. No issues with porn so far to report.
-Just feeling a general at peace, "good", stable feeling. Not really sure how to verbalise it. Even keeled, positive about my future with business and money, security through that. Self worth through that. Zero desire for "outcome" with girls so things are seamless when dealing with them because there's no "agenda", removes any anxiety and nervousness and trying to force interactions and rapport etc. Again, I'm still not seeing women as a part of my life in a marriage or girlfriend situation going forward which is odd to me. But I'm just reporting on what is there is all. I've even been looking at specifics of buying a couple eggs in a few years for having kids, to protect my rights and money and having kids at the same time. I've kinda thought about kids before this version...like it was off in the distance and vague...but lately it's become more of a serious thought on this version strangely. It's like the program is getting me to think about impregnating women as this only kicked up since starting V3.2, lol. More seriously, in this country especially, the laws are outrageous and stacked against men big time. I stand to lose tons of my hard-earned money in a divorce, even 50% of MY house that I bought and own and have all paperwork for, which is unfair, the works. Never mind the all powerful "abuse" line thrown out which ruins you and any standing you had otherwise. I've watched guys get destroyed by this country and it's anti-male laws. Seems too painful and risky given divorce rates and unfair laws, so sadly, I may be forced to go this route to protect myself and still continue the line someday. Insane a man in my situation, who should be able to choose from the pick of the litter to be 100% real, has to go SO far...just to get fairness and decency...by essentially cutting women out of the entire legal framework of a situation...really sad to see how things have gone. Anyway, this is rapidly becoming "non DMSI-related" and I hate derails
...moving on... -Limited contact with girls on this version so far. Only 2 social events. Will be going to a third gathering tomorrow. But again, there's zero agenda to "do anything" there. If something relevant occurs, I'll report for R&D sake, but by no means am I going there thinking "oh DMSI may work now, I need to get chicks!!!". Interactions still feel the same to me, great flirty friendly stuff, but no real difference from V3.1 or movement beyond that point. Still feels there is a barrier between me and being a "hot guy" to them. Difference is, it just doesn't seem to matter to me anymore...I don't seem to care that much. Again, I can't tell if it's an "IDGAF", or if I'm just fed up with them and the failures and what not with them. It'd be cool to have a relationship someday, but I just don't seem to have the drive for it anymore for some reason. Maybe in time that'll change, who knows.
-Not really much else to report on this version besides what I've written. With how long it took for the version to come out finally, I did expect a lot more from it, I admit. Not design goal at all...but something more tangible externally to show me it's capable of such once and for all. We'll see I guess. I still do have severe doubts about this design goal actually working in reality for the majority and not guys already having some measure of success with women beforehand and/or in party situations with alcohol and drugs removing inhibitions, as has often been the case. Maybe it'll take another version or two for me to see something external that is clear and no doubt. I'll continue to use until the end of the line, regardless. Then after that, I'll re-evaluate, either going back to E2, or back to ASC 5G which was my first ever sub and made me a believer that these can actually work. Or I'll move onto other opportunities we'll see. Depends on how V3.3 and V3.4 and any others made after if so, function.
That's it for now, friends. I felt like it was time for an update.
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