(10-01-2016, 03:41 PM)Shannon Wrote: Sniping only works on the gender(s) of sexual response.

Quote:Or MAYBE you were givin him a butt display the way you were bending over the fountain, and he just wanted a closer look?

(10-01-2016, 04:44 PM)Benjamin Wrote:

Quote:Or MAYBE you were givin him a butt display the way you were bending over the fountain, and he just wanted a closer look?

Hahahahaha

(10-02-2016, 05:31 AM)RTBoss Wrote: My wife came home from work last night tired and irritable. She went to bed without even saying goodnight. Whatevs.

5 loops Ocean Surf, 13/15 clicks. That was loud. Kinda disturbed my sleep. I wonder if that's why I had a dream that I had lost my hearing. Some woman kept talking to me and I kept asking her to repeat herself, because I couldn't hear. I had a few other goofy dreams that I can't recall.

Libido is high, but I'm content self-gratifying. I notice this in other 2.4 journals as well - at least the temptation.

Headed to the gym this morning after I train my client. Cardio day, we'll see if there are any lookers.

(10-02-2016, 11:55 AM)RTBoss Wrote: Didn't make it to the gym, it's a beautiful day here and I wanted to make it to the zoo with my son. The train only runs on the weekends now, and he loves it.

I also took him on the carousel, which is where I got my one and only IOI (that I noticed, and was blatant). A really good looking mom, with a great body, just kept looking at us. I even looked around me to see if there was someone else around to look at - there wasn't. When we got off, she was behind us, and went over to who I assume was her husband. Scruffy, out-of-shape dad-bod type. Maybe that's why she has The Wandering Eye.

I'm constantly analyzing my thought processes and personality for reasons I may be resisting the program, so I can jot it here. If it helps with program development, great. Anyway, I'm a perfectionist - but the kind that will do something only if I know I got it right before I get started. If I can't get it right, I won't do it at all. That's what makes me a good trainer. Every movement must be perfect, no sloppy form. Before I ever set foot in a gym years ago, I did everything to learn all I could so that I wouldn't look dumb in front of others. But that's just one example. It applies to all other areas of my life. I won't do this or that, unless I know what I'm doing, or unless I feel like it. If my mood sucks, I won't do something because I don't want my mood to screw it up. Anyway, I'd be better off if I wasn't so hard on myself and allowed mistakes as part of my learning process.

I also noticed that I'm growing impatient. Looking here, looking there, looking everywhere. Killing neediness and instilling an IDGAF attitude is one side of the coin. What about improving the ability to be patient? I once heard a phrase, "Infinite patience produces immediate results." I wonder if that would aid with the manifestation side of things.

(10-02-2016, 02:28 PM)RTBoss Wrote: True, Sarge. It could any multitude of things, but of course that's something that'd make sense.

Regarding the perfectionism, I try and consciously relax, go with the flow, and open myself up to a come-what-may attitude. It'd be nice to have a better window into my subconscious. Like a "Systems Check" readout where I could "Success" and "Failure" on different checkpoints. Wouldn't that be nice.

(10-02-2016, 02:28 PM)RTBoss Wrote: True, Sarge. It could any multitude of things, but of course that's something that'd make sense.

Regarding the perfectionism, I try and consciously relax, go with the flow, and open myself up to a come-what-may attitude. It'd be nice to have a better window into my subconscious. Like a "Systems Check" readout where I could "Success" and "Failure" on different checkpoints. Wouldn't that be nice.

• Sick with an upper respiratory thing (Day 3). I never get sick, so this blows.
  
• Sick = run down, tired, irritable.
  
• Took 24 hours off DMSI to get good sleep.
  
• Ran 5 loops US speaker, -32 dB last night. Super tired this morning & feeling stressed.
  
• Feeling tempted to take more time off (but won't).