SargeMaximus: Time to Heal (DMSI 3.2A)

[SargeMaximus]

Just got back from the ER. Had a nose bleed that wouldn’t stop. Got it cauterized. Also, I’m sick. Doc says maybe flu. I had a fever and was given some Tylenol and Advil. Feeling a bit better now. I’m even feeling like I could go out to do some sales but I’d better take it easy today. I can go out tomorrow.

Growing up in a religious household we were strictly against vaccines, drugs, and things of that nature but I’m seeing how bad that is. I mean, fevers can be serious, drugs that bring it down are good.

The human race would not have progressed to where we are if we hadn’t made technilogies like that. So yeah, guess I’m just glad these things exist.

[SargeMaximus]

Would have had a measly pay check except one of my jobs was completed netting me a bunch of much needed commission cash. I’m still sick but am getting over it. I plan to take an Advil tomorrow and go out knocking. Ion, lots of online manifestations that aren’t going anywhere. I admit I’m more focused on making money right now than women but in the back of my mind I wonder if I’ll ever be able to balance both, seems like it’s always one or the other in terms of focus and results.

[SargeMaximus]

6.5 texted me tonight inviting me out for drinks. Told her I was sick but we have vague plans to have our Netflix and chill session sometime in the coming days.

[lano1106]

I get why people use tactics. Use whatever you like to succeed I guess. Although this is why I'm throwing tactics and techniques out the window now and doing natural game, cause I know many guys feel that self-worth issue, that it's their game attracting the girls, not their true self. I'm starting to notice now that I connect with girls better when I convey my true self, basically don't even try think of what to do, but just let my subconscious guide me. Conversations flow better and girls are more attracted.

In my experience, being myself has scared plenty of women off / lead to several women blocking me.

It hasn’t helped yet at attracting women.

In all fairness, I probably have never met the right kind of women for me. If I did meet someone that is ‘perfect for me’ then being myself would likely be extremely attractive to her.

But it did flush out the wrong kind of women. I doubt I would have been happy with some of the women that blocked me though.

As a 30 yo, with zero relationship experience and still a virgin (I have reached ‘1st base’ a few times though), being myself is the only viable option.

Being honest about my lack of experience might have scared off quite a few women, but one day a woman will really appreciate being the first of a 30+ yo.

Being a 30 yo virgin, who has never had a relationship, is a fetish to some women (according to some threads on the internet).

Some women say they wish they could meet a 30+ yo virgin and be his first, and that she would feel special being with someone that didn’t just throw away his virginity to some random escort / *****.


This also applies to Catman, and other older virgins also.


For the record, PUA hasn’t worked for me either.

But yeah... being yourself should work in theory, it makes logical sense.

From what I’ve read, there are many different kinds of women, and some would love you (when being yourself), some would hate you (when being yourself) and most would be unimpressed and not even notice that you exist (most women would see you as just another uninteresting / boring guy, just like the millions of others).

Almost every guy is boring to most women, but totally awesome to a rare few (from what I’ve read, and I’ve read thousands of threads about attraction and relationships).


I reckon almost every guy is a sexy fetish to at least one woman in the world.

I’m sure some women out there have a total Sarge fetish... salesman are quite sexy to some women...

I'm not sure if you understand what natural game is really about by the way. Look into Social Prime's philosophy. It's not your true self that is unattractive and scaring women away. In fact it is your damaged self that you're currently presenting to them, which is why you're struggling with women. We end up this way cause of years of childhood trauma and conditioning, so we act with fear and a thick mask to prevent us from truly connecting with women. This isn't your true natural self at all. You need to peel back those layers and eliminate the fear from holding you back (dont worry I have it too), so then you'll be who you're really meant to be - your true self. It's not about learning more techniques to become more attractive in my opinion. It's about unlearning and removing the negative conditioning, to uncover your true self.

Anyway I dont wanna derail Sarge's journal.

By seeing the effect that my behavior change is having on others as I go through AM6, I better appreciate the value of natural game.

but I still believe techniques have their place in seduction. Having some game plan, knowing where you are going to lead the girl that you are spending time with certainly contribute to achieve the result that you want.

When I read back what I just wrote, I realize that my position didn't really changes than what it was last summer when there this heated debate on natural vs PUA. All that did change is that appreciate more natural power. that being said, I also believe that there are more than 1 way to achieve change. There is top down approach or bottom-up one. There is no best one. It is only a question of personal taste. You can change your inner core (ie with subliminals) and let that influence your behavior or do the opposite. That is apply techniques and let the experience and the new acquired habits influence your inner core. Or even better do both at the same time...

For having followed you for some time, I have noticed that you have very strong beliefs on some topics. Such as the natural game and semen retention. I am curious. Have you experienced a lot of success with women by following those 2 particular beliefs?

[lano1106]

Just go out and meet as many women as possible then screen them for fast sex. The only downside is that after you shagged over 30 girls word gets around that your a bad boy. Which means girls who want boyfriends won't go near you especially if you live in a small city. So just keep that in mind.

that is a very accurate description of how things work. I think that it would be interesting to elaborate on the screening process.

I guess that it basically comes down to escalate things fast and relentlessly and if she does not go along with you that pretty much disqualify the girl.

Correct?

[rayrocanaldo]

Watching you guys get dates and stuff makes me realize I dont know how to set up dates. I'll need you guy's advice later in the future when shit will be happening.

[SargeMaximus]

Watching you guys get dates and stuff makes me realize I dont know how to set up dates. I'll need you guy's advice later in the future when shit will be happening.

Ray, you’ve been saying “I’ll be doing xyz later” for a while now.

I’d like to share with you one of my favourite zen quotes: “if not now, when?”

[rayrocanaldo]

Watching you guys get dates and stuff makes me realize I dont know how to set up dates. I'll need you guy's advice later in the future when shit will be happening.

Ray, you’ve been saying “I’ll be doing xyz later” for a while now.

I’d like to share with you one of my favourite zen quotes: “if not now, when?”

Of course I want to start now. But I cant right now because I've got a problem I need to solve( its a problem that has nothing to do with how to achieve goals. I already know how I am going to go about achieving it). Otherwise I would have started a very longtime ago. I need to solve it fast and then I will start for sure. Believe me it's not procrastination.

My journal will be called " The Greatest Journal Ever Done - A Ladies Man's Journey". Sounds like a book or something but I like it. I need the title to be confident to attract attention.

[SargeMaximus]

Nose is still bleeding randomly. I need to get it cauterized again. So no sales today. This will be the third time in as many days I've had my nose cauterized. It's ridiculous.

ION everything (and I mean EVERYTHING) is getting weird. Weird noises upstairs I never heard before, video games glitching in unfortunate ways, I encounter weird people when I leave the house just... ugh! I can only think reality bending but why is it bringing out weird shit?

[thor2014]

Just go out and meet as many women as possible then screen them for fast sex. The only downside is that after you shagged over 30 girls word gets around that your a bad boy. Which means girls who want boyfriends won't go near you especially if you live in a small city. So just keep that in mind.

that is a very accurate description of how things work. I think that it would be interesting to elaborate on the screening process.

I guess that it basically comes down to escalate things fast and relentlessly and if she does not go along with you that pretty much disqualify the girl.

Correct?

It would be impossible for me to explain in a post how I go about screening. If you need a blue print or model to follow I would recommend black dragon.

Keep in mind this is my way of doing things and is NOT by any means the only way because I come from a position of abundance I can afford to drop women after two dates if they do not play my game because there are others who will have casual sex with me.

If its a woman who is your dream girl and you absolutely want to shag then be persistent. I think alot of guys who study PUA are paranoid of appearing needy so give up the chase.

At the end of the day you gotto get out there and hit on women make mistakes and evolve your own style of meeting and shagging women.

[MasterEnki]

Would have had a measly pay check except one of my jobs was completed netting me a bunch of much needed commission cash. I’m still sick but am getting over it. I plan to take an Advil tomorrow and go out knocking. Ion, lots of online manifestations that aren’t going anywhere. I admit I’m more focused on making money right now than women but in the back of my mind I wonder if I’ll ever be able to balance both, seems like it’s always one or the other in terms of focus and results.

Posted a reply to you, in the Men’s Product Discussion Forum, in the main DMSI discussion thread.

I was going to start a thread in Chatterbox, but an already existing thread in Men’s Product Discussion seems good enough.

[SargeMaximus]

Nose bleeds continue. Doc prescribed me some over the counter nasal gel that is supposed to moisturize the nose. The nosebleeds are caused by dryness I guess. Anyhow, if they keep happening I’m going to have to get an appointment with a specialist. In the meantime I got next to no sleep last night having gone to the ER yet again for another cauterizing. So ima take today off too and hit the sales tomorrow bleed or no bleed. Gotta make money. Still, how rediculous is this that this of all years would have this problem. Seems awfully convenient.

[SargeMaximus]

Health issues continue. I don't know what's going on. Either my immune system is going crazy or DMSI is somehow making me have to deal with issues I've had for years. For example my rosacea/facial redness went into overdrive today. The skin became shiny and textureless like it was raw but didn't seem to heal at all. I went to the doctor and she's like "I find it hard to believe you've had doctors before who saw your face but never diagnosed you with anything". Long story short we're trying some medication to see if it helps at all. As a process of elimination. It is obvious to me, however, that I simply need to get a doctor who will take my health seriously. Sadly, the last one I had seemed to scoff at any concerns I had which is great for making you feel better temporarily, but not good for actually helping you become healthy. So with my nosebleeds and my cold/flu, this skin condition brings it to 3 things I'm actively monitoring now. It's crazy.

My skin was never this bad, nor were my nosebleeds. Seems like shit is getting real somehow.

In line with that, it also seems like I'm comprehending the seriousness, fragility, and delicateness of life a lot more intuitively lately. I think of relationships now, whereas before I didn't whatsoever. I think in terms of if the people around me are a positive or a negative to me. And I seem to be held in higher esteem too.

Anyhow, crazy last few days. Hope to get some sales tomorrow and start making financial progress again.

[lano1106]

I don't know if the unconscious mind could be able to do something like what you are experiencing but I know that in the past, for maybe, idk, maybe 2-3 years... EVERY single week-end where I had no obligations and could go out have fun, party and meet women, I ended up being sick, having flu like symptoms forcing me pass the opportunity to rest alone at my place instead...

I'm raising this possibility because, correct me if I'm wrong, but you started to frequent 1 or few women... and the nose bleeding kinda coincide with the start of your dates with the newly met women...