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07-22-2017, 03:44 AM
Post: #21
RE: DMSI Journey
Day 11.
3 loops of hybrid track.

Bad day Confused.
I woke up with remorseful thoughts about that girl. Let's call her Girl Z.
For those who do not know, that girl was flirting with me and giving me tons of IOIs for about a month, and like an idiot I did nothing. Not only I caught her IOIs late, but also I was unable to kino, nor escalate nor close with her, even tho I wanted and I knew that's what I was supposed to do. The last time we were alone together I was freezed to death. I was totally comfortable with the talk and making her laugh, but when it came to physical touch, my brain stopped working. So that situation is my reason here. People told me I could overcome that issue with the healing on DMSI.
Paradoxically, my male friends always reproached me to touch them too much when I talk.

So, today I woke up with remorseful thoughts. Regret, grief, anger, these feelings too. I thought things were getting better since I didn't thought about Girl Z for the past 3 days or so. I was still on my bed for a while thinking about how much I suck.
Then I went to my laptop, browsing some journals here and there to think about something else.
Then I bumped right away on that post:
Quote:This is your problem.

DMSI is a life changer, that is for sure. But when the opportunity presents itself, STRIKE. And if there is no opportunity, create one, then STRIKE.

And if you cannot create one, STRIKE.

DMSI IS a life changer, but you yourself are still a massive influence.

Listen, man, you flirt and you flirt and you flirt. But that gets boring. Imagine if a woman flirted with you, in the same way everyday, but you cannot do anything about it - only she can. But she doesn't take any decisive movements.

And she just keeps flirting and flirting.

That would suck balls (not really, more like give you blue balls Wink)

You NEED to TAKE ACTION.

You are doing amazingly by asking women out. Amazing work on that man. But, when you actually get there, you have to touch her, you have to keep the eye contact, you need to get close and feel the tension. When you can withstand this tension and KEEP piling it on her, you will have her in your grasp.

First you create this sexual tension, then you withdraw.. then you increase the tension again. And finally, you need to pull the trigger; because you know what the difference is between a good guy (not nice, good) and a good guy that gets all the chicks?

Kino, escalation, sexual tension, pulling the trigger.

That's it.

And if you cannot believe in body language (for whatever weird reason), then just pull the trigger. If she isn't pushing you back when you flirt, take that as a sign to just do it. If she is neutral, pull the trigger.

I understand you have this blockage, this belief that it will get you in trouble.. but IT IS KEEPING YOU FROM BEING THE BEST VERSION OF YOURSELF.

Pull the ***** trigger.
Annnnnd I felt worse. Thanks bro, I was trying to feel better instead.
Then a lot of thoughts came into my mind:
-Shouldn't I just run OF or something like that ?
-What if DMSI can't help me take actions ?
-Look at all these users getting IOIs without doing anything. You'll be like that in some months, unable to take action, so what's the point ?
-What if you do not encounter again a girl as interested and opened as Girl Z ?

I felt tired after a while then decided to sleep while listening to DMSI (3 loop hybrid track). Thankfully I fell asleep quickly and peacefully.
I dreamed about being in a large and open space. A grassland. I was in middle of it. I was seeing myself like in a RPG game.
I'm not 100% sure of what was happening, but I think I was talking to someone in my head (maybe myself) about Girl Z. I was looking for something. I was looking for a way to resolve something.
That's what I remembered when I woke up. Btw the remorseful thoughts didn't stop when I woke up...

I hope it was part of the healing and not just a random bad day Angry.

On a side note, lately my visualization is getting clearer.
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07-22-2017, 10:03 AM
Post: #22
RE: DMSI Journey
I'm procrastinating so hard today...I'm slacking off and watching animes all day long -_-.
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07-23-2017, 02:15 PM (This post was last modified: 07-23-2017 02:17 PM by Plouf.)
Post: #23
RE: DMSI Journey
Day 12.
2 loops hybrid track + 2 loops later (I just left like doing it...)

Procrastination is high today again -_-.
I thought about girl Z again and felt miserable being single.
Then, later I felt so good being single I was wondering why am I even listening to DMSI since I don't need girls.
Wtf...I felt bipolar today.

I went out today and didn't notice any IOI. I don't think my social confidence increased. Hot girls are still intimidating.
Overall I didn't feel good today again.
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07-24-2017, 05:53 AM
Post: #24
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It's the clearing bro. The first few days of DMSI was up and down for me too. I also had regrets about a girl from my past (in this case my ex). But hang in there, these will be cleared and you will be glad these issues are worked through! Try to bring more awareness to your down feelings. They provide clues to what's resisting within you.
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07-24-2017, 06:26 AM
Post: #25
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Quote:Try to bring more awareness to your down feelings. They provide clues to what's resisting within you.
Will try, thank you !
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07-24-2017, 10:52 AM
Post: #26
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Day 13.
3 loops hybrid track.

Depressed again today. During and shortly after listening to DMSI.
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07-24-2017, 03:37 PM
Post: #27
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The urge to switch to another sub is high recently.
I think I'm resisting more with 3 loops.
What would happens if I run more ?
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07-25-2017, 05:42 AM (This post was last modified: 07-25-2017 05:44 AM by Plouf.)
Post: #28
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Felt depressed and hopeless today again all the morning. Life seemed meaningless, I got suicidal thoughts. I had to use some NLP tricks and metta meditation to lift my mood (sorry Shannon).
It's almost funny to see how my subconscious mind thinks it's the end of the world. That's the feeling I get behind my hopelessness and emptiness.
Now, being single bothers me a lot. Feel sick when I see couples.

I'll run the ultrasonic track all the night today. (unless it's ok to listen to the hybrid track on my laptop - without earphone then)
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07-25-2017, 05:48 AM
Post: #29
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Thought, this morning at some point I managed to tell goodbye to girl Z...In my head. I feel like I was in process of moving on.
But I noticed seeing couples, or whatever related to relationships trigger thoughts about Z, and I feel sick. It's like a trauma. I wasn't feeling like that before the sub.
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07-25-2017, 12:43 PM
Post: #30
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Went out with a friend. I feel better, a bit.
We were around women A LOT. Yet, no IOI.
For some reason I'm not executing the script properly...
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07-26-2017, 12:19 PM
Post: #31
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Day 14.
8~11 loops hybrid track.

**** yeah. Didn't feel bad today Smile.
Z was slightly on my mind but it didn't make me feel down.
But I feel really exhausted.
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07-26-2017, 05:07 PM (This post was last modified: 07-26-2017 05:08 PM by Plouf.)
Post: #32
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I'm currently listening to DMSI (for day 15) and yaay, I feel so good and peaceful.
I have no stress nor worry about women. I feel free.
It looks like the 8 loops yesterday really helped.
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07-27-2017, 04:04 PM
Post: #33
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I'm losing weight noticeably. Not good, I'm already skinny.
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07-27-2017, 08:21 PM
Post: #34
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(07-27-2017 04:04 PM)Plouf Wrote:  I'm losing weight noticeably. Not good, I'm already skinny.

No appetite?

Start scarfing down some pizzas, chicken wings, burgers, or whatever high calorie foods you have available. Put peanut butter on everything, eat gigantic bowls of cereal...

I'm really just listing everything that gets me fat after I get fit and get tired of eating right all the time, lol.
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07-28-2017, 07:15 AM
Post: #35
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Quote:No appetite?
I usually have a low appetite. But I'm eating more with DMSI.
But I'm still losing weight.

Quote:Start scarfing down some pizzas, chicken wings, burgers, or whatever high calorie foods you have available. Put peanut butter on everything, eat gigantic bowls of cereal...
I'm trying. Eating when I'm not hungry is a torture. Tho I'm allergic to most food helping with bulking. No PB then...And I have milk intolerence.
I'm planning on running MHS after the 32th day of DMSI. I can't bulk with all these allergies.
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07-29-2017, 12:03 AM
Post: #36
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(07-28-2017 07:15 AM)Plouf Wrote:  
Quote:No appetite?
I usually have a low appetite. But I'm eating more with DMSI.
But I'm still losing weight.

Quote:Start scarfing down some pizzas, chicken wings, burgers, or whatever high calorie foods you have available. Put peanut butter on everything, eat gigantic bowls of cereal...
I'm trying. Eating when I'm not hungry is a torture. Tho I'm allergic to most food helping with bulking. No PB then...And I have milk intolerence.
I'm planning on running MHS after the 32th day of DMSI. I can't bulk with all these allergies.

If you have milk intolerance buy some lactase tablets, very cheap, and just take a couple when u drink milk. I am also a little lactose intolerant, but i take lactase tablets every time, and I'm 100% fine with eating/drinking dairy. Kirkland brand is cheapest and same level of quality; it's just lactase after all.
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07-29-2017, 12:35 AM
Post: #37
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Depends if it's lactose intolerance or milk intolerance. The latter is much more serious and harder to "fight" against.

ENTJ
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07-29-2017, 01:27 AM
Post: #38
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(07-29-2017 12:35 AM)ReeZoX Wrote:  Depends if it's lactose intolerance or milk intolerance. The latter is much more serious and harder to "fight" against.

Oh, didn't know there was such thing as milk intolerance
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07-29-2017, 06:02 AM (This post was last modified: 07-29-2017 06:23 AM by Plouf.)
Post: #39
RE: DMSI Journey
@dissonance: Thank you, but I gave them a try for a while and I still got diarrhea when I drink milk.

Day 17.
2 loops hybrid track (low volume).

Since I started DMSI A, I feel like chasing girls is meaningless - most of the time. That's really strange but since DMSI A I'm more interested in my spiritual development. I feel like I have less attachement in material stuff.
As far as I can recall I always was interested in spiritual development, but now the urge is strong.
I do not know if it's my subconscious resisting to make me stop the sub, but now I feel like listening to DMSI is meaningless. I feel like there are way more important points I must work on than banging chicks.

On a related note, yesterday something clicked in my head. I realized I'm after girls because I want validation. I feel like I want confirmation that I'm a real man, a "normal" human being. I still have the V card.
Ironically, my way of life, my personnality (INFP-T) don't let room for playing with women that much.

I don't know what to do...I'll probably stop DMSI after the 32th day and focus on my physical healing (MHS), feeling good (LTU), learning and being productive (MLS or BASE). If there was a "spiritual" sub I'd have used it right away.
Everything else seems meningless to me right now.
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07-29-2017, 07:33 AM
Post: #40
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(07-29-2017 06:02 AM)Plouf Wrote:  Since I started DMSI A, I feel like chasing girls is meaningless - most of the time.
I do not know if it's my subconscious resisting to make me stop the sub, but now I feel like listening to DMSI is meaningless. I feel like there are way more important points I must work on than banging chicks.

This is actually a good thing, whether you are aware of this or not. When you stop chasing girls, they start chasing you.

(07-29-2017 06:02 AM)Plouf Wrote:  That's really strange but since DMSI A I'm more interested in my spiritual development. I feel like I have less attachment to material stuff.
As far as I can recall I always was interested in spiritual development, but now the urge is strong.

You may find minimalism interesting...
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