Clamshell's weekly journal

[Clamshell]

Well, it's been just about one full week since I've started the subs I bought, in earnest. The subs I'm using are Ultra Success and Become Irresistibly Attractive To Beautiful Women Version 6.0. The first night I started them, I was feeling euphoric. However, I've been a little depressed the last week, for various reasons not pertaining to the subs. However, I've had this "can do" feeling for the whole week, for things that I've been planning to do.

The interesting thing about the Become Irresistibly Attractive To Beautiful Women Version 6.0 is that I'm getting a bunch of old beliefs dredged up about why I cannot have the things I want. I've been toying around with Reality Creation (i.e. Law of Attraction) for awhile. So I know when you're trying to program your mind with something new, the subconscious will throw a lot of "why you cannots" at you. Usually that is considered a sign of progress--at least from the stuff I've read. However, I'm also getting very interesting erotic dreams in the process.

No women are showing any more interest in me than usual. But I'm not expecting such in only the first week. I clearly have numerous negative beliefs that I must move through.

I'll keep posting every week. Or sooner, if something interesting comes up.

[Shannon]

Your experiences are indeed a sign that it's working. The negativity is coming up as a defense for the programming that is being challenged. Eventually, it will be replaced. In some cases, there will even be some desire to stop using the program. I remember when I first used the first prototype of the Alpha set, which was basically a single stage designed to prevent me from being walked on by the women in my life. My beliefs REALLY resisted and for the first three or four days I was really wanting to stop using it. Then there were three or four days where I felt that fading. It seems that sometimes when you are replacing an in-place belief program, it will try to defend itself with resistance. I found that fascinating. It is definitely revealing, though.

[Clamshell]

I'm glad I'm on the right track. I'm getting a lot of "I'm not worthy", "sex is wrong", and "I'm not good enough", along with "my desires are inappropriate" (goes with the sex is wrong), "I'm too ugly", etc. No wonder I never had much luck with women!

It's surprising to me that I actually had those kinds of beliefs. At least to the intensity that I have them.

[Shannon]

Sounds like I might need to do a new title for you on those. That sounds like it would be a good one for a lot of people. Anything else you're getting?

[Clamshell]

(03-27-2010 10:55 PM)Shannon Wrote:  Sounds like I might need to do a new title for you on those. That sounds like it would be a good one for a lot of people. Anything else you're getting?

I'm not sure. It's like I'm a bit shyer around women. Like if I let my desires be known, she and her friends are going to beat me up or something. Or that I will lose friends.

Another biggie is that I have nothing to say or do that will hold a woman's interest for very long. I'm too boring for women. If you could make a sub that will make a person fascinating and maybe even an "international man of mystery" or the "most interesting man in the world" from the Dos Equis commercials (especially the latter--but serious), I would like to try it out.

It must be stated that the friends I have and had were due to the fact that I wasn't attracting any women, and the women they were getting were hardly worth any effort to try and attract--even on their part. I don't know if that helps any. I will try to make this clearer if I can, later. Since my best friend died, I'm getting tons of interesting insight in what kind of people I have been attracting.

I've been seriously contemplating getting Develop an Aura of Sexiness and adding it to the mix, as I have appearance issues. And it might help women be sexually attracted to me, and not everyone else.

Oh yeah, I'm afraid I'm going to be terrible in bed.

I was also thinking about getting Attract Your Perfect Friend With Benefits, Attract Your Perfect Large Breasted Romantic Lover, Attract Your Perfect Naturally Redheaded Romantic Lover. But I really want a multitude of lovers and don't want to settle down with one. I want to be able to attract and hold the attention of the best looking women, wherever I go, with a preference for breasts and red hair. And I really wouldn't mind having a Friend With Benefits on the side, too. Hope that helps as far as the big picture of what I'm going after, goes. However, it's becoming more and more obvious why I was never good with women. Maybe it has something to do with a somewhat Catholic upbringing.

Oh yeah, "all sex is a form of coercion", and "when you have sex with someone, you take something away from them". I guess those are the best ways to describe those two other beliefs that I hadn't realized I have.

[Shannon]

This sounds as if you would be best served by ordering a Custom Subliminal to deal with these things but the Alpha Male training set would be a good secondary choice.

[Clamshell]

But it boils down to money. Anyway, I'm going with the idea that if those beliefs are coming to the surface like they are, then they are getting cleaned out. After all, it's only the first week. However, I might just buy Develop an Aura of Sexiness soon and add it to the other two subs I'm using.

[Clamshell]

Btw, I bought Develop an Aura of Sexiness last night, and added it to the mix.

The more I thought about it, the more I needed to get my self-image in order. Develop an Aura of Sexiness seemed like the best choice for the money.

[WildFlower]

(03-27-2010 06:50 PM)Shannon Wrote:  Your experiences are indeed a sign that it's working. The negativity is coming up as a defense for the programming that is being challenged. Eventually, it will be replaced. In some cases, there will even be some desire to stop using the program. I remember when I first used the first prototype of the Alpha set, which was basically a single stage designed to prevent me from being walked on by the women in my life. My beliefs REALLY resisted and for the first three or four days I was really wanting to stop using it. Then there were three or four days where I felt that fading. It seems that sometimes when you are replacing an in-place belief program, it will try to defend itself with resistance. I found that fascinating. It is definitely revealing, though.

When starting a new sub I find that the first couple of days - usually 4 - are really great and euphoric. Then the resistance seems to kick in, this for me tends to last about 4-7 days before I start to feel the benefits of the sub agian. When starting on the 3rd set of the Alpha sub the resistance was more aggressive than usual, but I found a glass of water once or twice a day with 4 drops of Bach rescue remedy "to comfort and reassure" really helped to alleviate the resistance. I'm from the UK so not really sure if they sell it in the US, but I'm positive you could pick up something very similar for just as cheap.

[Shannon]

That's a really interesting idea, the Bach Rescue Remedy.

[Shannon]

(03-28-2010 12:47 PM)Clamshell Wrote:  But it boils down to money. Anyway, I'm going with the idea that if those beliefs are coming to the surface like they are, then they are getting cleaned out. After all, it's only the first week. However, I might just buy Develop an Aura of Sexiness soon and add it to the other two subs I'm using.

I understand the price concern. I'm not trying to sell you on the custom, since I don't have time to build any more until the current batch are done regardless, I'm just saying that sounds like it would be the best option. We have several other options that would also be good. I'm sure you'll find them.

[Clamshell]

I've never heard of the Bach Rescue Remedy before. I'm going to look into it. It is available in the US, and I'll see if the local Wal Mart has some, very soon. Thank you for the suggestion, Wildflower.

I'm feeling other resistance, too. Like I'm losing faith that the subs will ever work (and I constantly have to remind myself that it's only been one week! And that it doesn't hurt to keep them on all night long).

Also, when you do subs, do you find that the people that you see regularly tend to drop out of your life and new people, who are more conducive to your new beliefs, appear in their place? I know I've had situations that seemed to be that way. So have other people. I used to read a lot of Seth/Jane Roberts, and they speak a lot of probable universes and realities and that you really only run into and associate with people who share your fundamental beliefs due to probabilities meeting. If you don't have the same fundamental beliefs, you either remain oblivious to them, or never come close to meeting each other.

I've known people who were next door neighbors or lived on the same block who never even saw each other until they had some change in belief. And they became best friends, or even married the other person.

This is a concept that has intrigued me for years. If I had tons of money to spend on custom subs, this is one subject I would spend the money on to explore better. Of course, once my beliefs are changed, I will probably be seeing this take place first hand. I think it would be an interesting discussion about how the people around you either change, or drop out of a person's life and the new people that appear when the subs have taken effect. What do you think?

I have to admit that the reason I'm asking is because I feel the people I'm surrounded by right now are never going to respond to me the way I want them to (especially the women) when I'm done with the subs. I just have a gut feeling I'm going to have to run into a whole different crowd of people. But, of course, I wouldn't mind being surprised if the reality turns out differently. And I don't mind finding myself in a whole different crowd of people who will confirm the beliefs that I'm instilling in myself through the subs.

[WildFlower]

(03-30-2010 06:51 AM)Shannon Wrote:  That's a really interesting idea, the Bach Rescue Remedy.

I always keep a bottle around for if I have a job interview, or a cliche first date. That sort of thing. It really just allows me to function as normal by quietening my - concious - mind to it's normal state. I guess if the resistance experienced from subs is the concious fighting the sub-concious, it would explain why the Bach drops work for me.

[Shannon]

(03-30-2010 08:51 AM)Clamshell Wrote:  I've never heard of the Bach Rescue Remedy before. I'm going to look into it. It is available in the US, and I'll see if the local Wal Mart has some, very soon. Thank you for the suggestion, Wildflower.

I'm feeling other resistance, too. Like I'm losing faith that the subs will ever work (and I constantly have to remind myself that it's only been one week! And that it doesn't hurt to keep them on all night long).

Also, when you do subs, do you find that the people that you see regularly tend to drop out of your life and new people, who are more conducive to your new beliefs, appear in their place? I know I've had situations that seemed to be that way. So have other people. I used to read a lot of Seth/Jane Roberts, and they speak a lot of probable universes and realities and that you really only run into and associate with people who share your fundamental beliefs due to probabilities meeting. If you don't have the same fundamental beliefs, you either remain oblivious to them, or never come close to meeting each other.

I've known people who were next door neighbors or lived on the same block who never even saw each other until they had some change in belief. And they became best friends, or even married the other person.

This is a concept that has intrigued me for years. If I had tons of money to spend on custom subs, this is one subject I would spend the money on to explore better. Of course, once my beliefs are changed, I will probably be seeing this take place first hand. I think it would be an interesting discussion about how the people around you either change, or drop out of a person's life and the new people that appear when the subs have taken effect. What do you think?

I have to admit that the reason I'm asking is because I feel the people I'm surrounded by right now are never going to respond to me the way I want them to (especially the women) when I'm done with the subs. I just have a gut feeling I'm going to have to run into a whole different crowd of people. But, of course, I wouldn't mind being surprised if the reality turns out differently. And I don't mind finding myself in a whole different crowd of people who will confirm the beliefs that I'm instilling in myself through the subs.

I seriously doubt Wal Mart does, or will ever carry the Bach Flower Remedies.

Yes I definitely notice that as my beliefs change I meet new people and others fall away.

Subliminals (at least, my subliminals) don't require faith to work. I am seeing a lot of people who have a hard time just using them because they somehow can't quite consciously believe that they could work. Just use it and relax. Worrying about it isn't helping it work. Just step out of the way, use it properly and let it happen.

Truly your outer reality does shift to match your inner beliefs. I am living proof.

[Clamshell]

I'm noticing I'm seeing people I've never seen before in my immediate vicinity. The others haven't fallen away yet, but new people are constantly entering into my view. I just noticed this in the last day. However, like I said, this is a subject that has fascinated me for a long time. I just wish there was a way to more fully explore it. And another part of the reason that I got interested in this subject again--that has nothing to do with subs--is that I was looking over both versions of the Neverwhere rpg (both free on rpgnow.com). It's a game based on Neil Gaiman's Neverwhere. It really got me wondering what fascinating stuff we miss all day long because our realities are filtered through our beliefs.

I also noticed that, even though I was having a lack of faith, I have become more "aggressive" in that I will make these subs work for me regardless. It's hard to explain. It's more like I'm going to become what I know and think are on the subs no matter what. No matter if the people around me right now will ever respond to my new self. I'm taking that as yet another sign that the subs are having their effects on me.

[Clamshell]

(03-30-2010 06:53 AM)Shannon Wrote:  

(03-28-2010 12:47 PM)Clamshell Wrote:  But it boils down to money. Anyway, I'm going with the idea that if those beliefs are coming to the surface like they are, then they are getting cleaned out. After all, it's only the first week. However, I might just buy Develop an Aura of Sexiness soon and add it to the other two subs I'm using.

I understand the price concern. I'm not trying to sell you on the custom, since I don't have time to build any more until the current batch are done regardless, I'm just saying that sounds like it would be the best option. We have several other options that would also be good. I'm sure you'll find them.

I understand. And if I find I do have the money, I will make sure I order some very interesting subs beyond what you already offer. In fact, I might just sit down some time this week and write out all the things that I would like to put into a series of subs. I'm not kidding about wanting to make major changes in my life! Of course that depends on a change in fortune, which I'm going to work on after I get the whole attractiveness to sexy women thing taken care of. In fact, I will buy the subs I was planning on buying, real soon, just to have them when the time is right.

Btw, after walking around outside for a bit today, I'm noticing that women are responding to me better than they have in the last few months (they are friendlier and initiate comments to me). And I am amazed at the new faces (who must have been around for some time) I'm seeing in the last couple of days.

[Shannon]

I have been observing the effects of subliminals on my life and am always amazed at how big an impact they have. They have brought people into my life who became major players, who I will never forget and who are still playing roles that grow with each encounter. The tapestry is still being woven, even though I haven't been using the Manifest Unlimited Wealth, Abundance And Success sub for over a year and a half now. And it's not the only one to bring interesting results... I have also met important people through the Become A Successful Entrepreneur sub, the Manifest Your Perfect Lover sub, and Attract Your Perfect Naturally Redheaded Lover subs. I can see my ideal Soul Mate is going to make an appearance in my life within the next year as well, and I have found several customs I made for myself effective in meeting people as well, including one of my favorite fine art models. I am currently drawing three other people into my life using experimental subliminals too.

Again, no need for faith. They work. It's hard to believe at first, I know, but with enough time you'll start to just relax and let them have their effect. One week is nothing. I have been using them for years and I have some amazing stories to tell - some so amazing nobody would believe them.

[Clamshell]

(03-31-2010 02:25 PM)Shannon Wrote:  I have been using them for years and I have some amazing stories to tell - some so amazing nobody would believe them.

That's too bad. I, for one, would love to hear them.

Your sincerity in the effectiveness of your products really inspire me to keep going.

Anyway, I'm contemplating on getting some stereo equipment, maybe even a new mp3 player as well, so that I can "listen" to the subs a lot more than I'm able to at this time. I want to see major results in a month's time...but I'll continue for as long as it takes to ensure I get good results. After all, I like sleeping when they are on. And the erotic things I think of when I'm just laying in bed while they're on are fun, as well.

[Shannon]

(04-01-2010 10:42 AM)Clamshell Wrote:  

(03-31-2010 02:25 PM)Shannon Wrote:  I have been using them for years and I have some amazing stories to tell - some so amazing nobody would believe them.

That's too bad. I, for one, would love to hear them.

Your sincerity in the effectiveness of your products really inspire me to keep going.

Anyway, I'm contemplating on getting some stereo equipment, maybe even a new mp3 player as well, so that I can "listen" to the subs a lot more than I'm able to at this time. I want to see major results in a month's time...but I'll continue for as long as it takes to ensure I get good results. After all, I like sleeping when they are on. And the erotic things I think of when I'm just laying in bed while they're on are fun, as well.

I would not dare put my name on them if they didn't work. Andrew would not be my business partner if they hadn't proven themselves to him, too. I didn't start this business to make money; I started it to be able to make a living helping people improve their lives.

One story I can tell you is how I created the first attraction subliminal based on about 17 years of research into how magick works. I had been doing various experiments with making things happen and realized that in the end, it wasn't some mysterious thing, it was simply the active manipulation of energy coupled with programming the subconscious mind to direct that energy. So, I theorized, if I created a subliminal that was properly worded, I should be able to trigger the same results, except it would be passive. It takes me about two weeks to achieve my goals using active techniques; I figured it would take 4 weeks to do it passively.

The first title I made, as an experiment, was "Attract Your Perfect Lover". I figured it would be hard to miss that and what a reward if it worked!

It took 4 months - not 4 weeks; but it worked. I ended up attracting a woman I never would have guessed would be my perfect lover. I had been dating a natural redhead up to that point, and have always had a "thing" for pale skin freckles and natural red or platinum blonde hair. Enter this new girl - we'll call her "B". She was black Jamaican!

Now I have nothing against black people or Jamaicans, but I typically go for a very specific look and personality, and most black women I have met don't have both. B didn't have the look, but she was an exotic and hauntingly beautiful girl which intrigued me because working as a photographer, I have grown jaded and bored with cookie cutter "beauty". Exotic women catch my eye a lot more easily. B was nothing short of Playboy material and she modeled for me for quite a few sessions. Well, without making this too long a story, we became quickly embroiled in the most powerful, erotic, sexual, lust-filled relationship I have ever had, and probably ever will have. But it wasn't all sex - it was also the most major romance I have had so far also. And when I say I attracted my "perfect lover" - it is impossible for me to describe how good the sex was. Literally, if you have not had your perfect lover, you just cannot understand this. Think orgasms so good they caused out of body experiences and physical paralysis. Frequently. Literally.

On top of that, she was the first and only woman I have ever met who could keep up with me sexually. No matter how much I wanted it, she was there with me. And unlike some of my past lovers, she was no dead fish - she could beat me to the finish line a few times over in a race, if you get my drift - and keep going for hours. There were days we spent literally every waking hour indulging in our sexual desires. There were also days when she never got to work because she was having too much fun! lol

Anyway, this story also has a down side. I made the mistake of focusing entirely on sex with the subliminal, so we understood each other and matched each other's needs and desires perfectly in the area of sex, but we were not very compatible otherwise. We couldn't communicate half the time to save our lives when it came to spoken words, and it took me years to get her to be honest, faithful and sober. (I'm not entirely sure I ever got her to really be faithful.) None of these negatives made me happy of course. When I finally got her there, we had had so many problems that we had to split up, and she ended up marrying someone else. It took her marrying him to get me to stop trying to make it work, though - she was most definitely some sort of Soul Mate for me.

But it didn't stop with her. When I attracted her into my life, she was not the only one who showed up. I also attracted two other women, who all wanted to be with me badly enough that they were willing to share. It didn't take long for me to conclude that more than one woman at a time is too much hassle, but for a while there I had three girlfriends at once, all of whom knew each other in person, all of whom knew they were dating me, all of whom were sleeping with me knowing the others were also, and two of whom were submissive. Literally, my wish was their command. It was amazing to take a shower with two beautiful women and have them wash me and then fall asleep with one on each of my shoulders.

But again, not all positive. There is no way that three women are going to get along together under those circumstances for long unless the man has resources I did not have. I also wasn't really interested in having multiple girlfriends. The time soon came for me to choose one, because the hassle of trying to make the whole thing work wasn't worth it.

All this from the Attract Your Perfect Lover program and four months of play while I slept. Try that on for "hard to believe".

For some interesting erotic thoughts try playing the Poetry of the Silent Eros subs sometime.

[Clamshell]

Wow!

Well, I'm certainly going to keep playing the subs I bought! I can't wait to see what effects they have on my life.