2020-2021 Alpha Male v.6

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Stage 5, Day 4,

Doing well. I'm ahead of myself with my coding bootcamp, submitting homework about 3-4 days in advance.
I got sent home yesterday for a very mild sore throat (COVID symptom), so I got Thursday and Friday off of work.
I got 10.5 hours of sleep today, and the symptoms were all but gone this morning.
Got a lot of guitar and coding practice. Ran for 1.25 hours today.
Feeling good.

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Stage 5, Day 8,

Things going smoothly. Gaining more interest in rings and watches. Less interest in sex.

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Stage 5, Day 8,

A couple of insights that I've been sitting on:

- The need for reassurance is a form of validation seeking; stop making statements of uncertainty or insecurity towards people in the hope that they will give you calming words or shore up your abilities.
- Shut your damn mouth; don't blab to people about random goings on. I used to tell at least one person when I got a new date, etc. Now, I keep my own business to myself and don't even hint to it. Even if people inferred it, I wouldn't share.
- Disclose things only with people you've chosen in advice that you trust. Rumor spread quickly if put in the hands of the wrong person.

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Stage 5. Day 15,

Noticing a considerable decrease in guitar playing speed. Still playing coordinated, but at about 90% of my max speed. Staying consistent with the practice but it's either not paying off or there's some work happening on the foundational level.

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Stage 5, Day 18

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Stage 5, Day 21,

Missed a day due to a sexy sleepover. Got 33 days left in my 6-Stage run.
OF2 is on the docket after a 1-2 week hiatus.

My body language is generally improved.
A few months ago, I remember remarking at Christoph Waltz' posture/poise in Inglorious Basterds. Nowadays, I have a similar posture when I think about it; I still slouch when I'm in a flow state at my computer.

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Stage 5, Day 24

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Stage 5, Day 27,

Changing to Stage 6 on Friday

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Stage 5, Day 29

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Stage 6, Day 4,

So word must have gotten out about my good dick skills (or something) because I suddenly got 3 new random women follow me on Instagram. I don't know them, and they don't know me. I haven't posted anything for months.

Maybe it's this TID (future coming to life before running the next sub)?

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Stage 6, Day 7.,

Keeping track of the day.

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Stage 6, Day 10,

I've been running a bit more than usual.
It has been twice a week for several weeks, but I've done it a third time yesterday (Saturday) and make a habit of either Friday or Saturday (or both) then I'll throw in Mondays.

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NOTE: I've been having various thoughts and philosophies surrounding fear and the effects that fear has on your life.
If you're interested in having me shoot a video on it, let me know.

I'll probably do it either way, but some consensus on it will get it out faster.

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Stage 6, Day 12,

20 days left! I'm looking forward to using OF v.2/
I'm finding myself shrinking away more and more from life and the means of living.
Part of it has to do with COVID lockdowns; our province has a stay-at-home order, and though I've gone on dates in the past, my intuition has been telling me to not push for dates nowadays and to work on my projects/purpose.

I don't have regrets about this; however, I realize that I'm caving into tendencies to remain within a shell.
I've been able to look back and find incidents in my early life which either formed these fears or reinforced them.

I'm just itching to run the next subliminal.