2020-2021 Alpha Male v.6

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Stage 4, Day 7,

After 12:30 AM this morning, I submitted my book manuscript and Kindle file to Amazon. Within 12 hours, the project was approved and my book is officially published. A final end to 9 solid months of work.

I've been recovering from the "trauma" well enough; junk food and other vices.

I signed up for the coding bootcamp I had my eye on for 3 months. Starting next Tuesday, my next 6 months are booked pretty packed. We'll see how that goes. I might order some nootropics to get my brain popping!

If you're interested in what my book is about, contact me by DM and I'll send you the Amazon link. Otherwise, I won't discuss it much here. (Promotions are a no-no)

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Stage 4, Day 8,

Missed a day d/t a sexy sleepover. I'll be delaying Stage 4 by a day.

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Also, I will be starting the first session of my coding bootcamp this coming Tuesday, which means that I might be reaching out to those people who volunteered with (very surface level) advice. Happy to pay for additional technical help, though I believe that there are tutoring services as part of the bootcamp, so it might not be necessary.

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Stage 4, Day 12,

Started the coding bootcamp. Going smoothly. My previous experience has been helping, as my previous projects have been helpful.

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Stage 4, Day 16,

Had a very good evening yesterday

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Stage 4, Day 17,

Had a weird dream yesterday; a buddy of mine was getting beat up in a dark driveway. I chased after the person down the suburbs; he kept outpacing me (even though I'm a runner). It was like GTA; he jumped into his car and drove up some of the hills. I started poking my head in the apartment complexes. A work colleague found me after I failed to find them and scolded me a bit.

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Stage 4, Day 22,

Checking in.

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Stage 4, Day 24,

I'm going to listen much more to Zan Perrion. I've briefly listened to him when I was listening to various pick up artists. The closest thing to him is Rion Williams.
When I listen to Zan talk, I start to feel energy flowing.

I'll leave these links, of a really good interview, here for reference.
1) Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g7lGNyqr2WY
2) Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTTMP7m6Qqk
3) Part 3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nepyky9aMic
4) Part 4: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQcZXQqMtRQ

Applying his steps would make me face up to certain fears I have:
1) Fear of beauty
2) Fear of social situations
3) Fear of rejection
4) Fear of sex and sexuality, more-so in public
5) Fear of feeling/sensuality in front of strangers
6) Fear of assuming and imposing
7) Fear of emasculation due to rejection (conditioning from listening to too much Red Pill)
8) Fear of violence (of jealous men or those who try to MOG)
9) Fear of social shame and being called out on my desires

Even though I'm running AM6 and I don't always fear these fears in the moment, I want to use Overcoming Fear v.2 to eradicate these fears completely and for good.

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Stage 4, Day 24,

I'm going to listen much more to Zan Perrion. I've briefly listened to him when I was listening to various pick up artists. The closest thing to him is Rion Williams.
When I listen to Zan talk, I start to feel energy flowing.

I'll leave these links, of a really good interview, here for reference.
1) Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g7lGNyqr2WY
2) Part 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTTMP7m6Qqk
3) Part 3: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nepyky9aMic
4) Part 4: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQcZXQqMtRQ

Applying his steps would make me face up to certain fears I have:
1) Fear of beauty
2) Fear of social situations
3) Fear of rejection
4) Fear of sex and sexuality, more-so in public
5) Fear of feeling/sensuality in front of strangers
6) Fear of assuming and imposing
7) Fear of emasculation due to rejection (conditioning from listening to too much Red Pill)
8) Fear of violence (of jealous men or those who try to MOG)
9) Fear of social shame and being called out on my desires

Even though I'm running AM6 and I don't always fear these fears in the moment, I want to use Overcoming Fear v.2 to eradicate these fears completely and for good.

His aura. Is very good and radiating positivity!

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Stage 4, Day 26,

Had some great feelings/vibes today. A nice mix of heartfelt empathy/a desire to connect and some raw sexual energy. Gotta keep listening to Zan Perrion and read his book.

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Stage 4, Day 31,

I bought BlackDragonBlog's "Ultimate Open Relationships Manual"; it's meant to help convert women you're dating into a part-time girlfriend who is okay with your dating/sleeping with other women, without lying or compromising.

It's happened a couple of times where the woman I'm seeing starts broaching the topic of a long-term relationship. I'm down to date them once per week (and they push for more). I'm pretty good at keeping things as they are, but women do want something more, and I've never worked on relationship skills.

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Stage 5, Day 1,

Got the COVID vaccine last Friday; ever since, I've had minor symptoms but they really suck.
Initially, jitteriness. Then, slight fever. Then, wooziness and mild vertigo/nausea. Then, anxiety and not feeling 100% well.

It's funny, in the 72 hour period between Friday night and Monday night, I fucked three different women. One was my usual gal, the other two were second wine dates at my apartment. Both of the new girls were 22 (I'm almost 29), so it feels pretty good. The girl I've been dating is 31. Both of the new girls, I came fairly quickly on the first round, then gave a good pounding on the second round. (one gave a 10/10 BJ and swallowed; it was the cute innocent looking gal, of course).

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Got the COVID vaccine last Friday; ever since, I've had minor symptoms but they really suck.
Initially, jitteriness. Then, slight fever. Then, wooziness and mild vertigo/nausea. Then, anxiety and not feeling 100% well.

May I ask which brand vaccine you got?

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Got the COVID vaccine last Friday; ever since, I've had minor symptoms but they really suck.
Initially, jitteriness. Then, slight fever. Then, wooziness and mild vertigo/nausea. Then, anxiety and not feeling 100% well.

May I ask which brand vaccine you got?

Pfizer, I think; the one which requires steep refrigeration and 3 weeks between doses.
I'm 100% pro-vaccine, by the way.