Trip.1e Bag It - Wrapping Up with my Aura Jimmy Hat - DMSI V3.1

[RTBoss]

Hybrid .FLAC, phone direct to soundbar, lower volume: -50 db vs. the normal -30.

Loops finished, sudden interest in really strict/short-term/restrictive diets. I think, analyzing why, it may have something to do with feeling in control, and that my subconscious feels like it's losing control. I certainly haven't been happy with how I've been eating since starting V3.1.

Anxiety levels moderate-to-high, moderate headache (I never get headaches, this has to be resistance), and feelings of immolation (hands/feet buzzing off-the-charts, feeling very warm in the chest area, but cool hands/feet).

I again have this feeling like I'm going to jump outta my skin, or just straight-up lose my shit. Super-tense right now, and I don't know what I can do about it other than wait it out.

[4Kingdoms]

Just curious. A couple of testers have exposed their gf's to 3.1 and I'm sure you've read about it.
After reading what they experienced... have you considered exposing your wife to 3.1??

[RTBoss]

Just curious. A couple of testers have exposed their gf's to 3.1 and I'm sure you've read about it.
After reading what they experienced... have you considered exposing your wife to 3.1??

No.

A.) She's still pregnant. I'm not going to have her experiment with energy flooding of any sort, as I don't know how it'll affect the pregnancy.

B.) I don't need the doctors at the hospital suddenly going out of their way to seduce my wife.

C.) If we both are running DMSI, I'd hate for the program to set us on a path of separation. I can monitor and assess my thoughts, but I wouldn't be able to monitor and assess hers. Too risky.

After she gives birth to our daughter, I'm going to purchase MHS 5.5G for her to help her heal from whatever birth trauma and pregnancy trauma she's incurred. I'll likely stay on DMSI.

[RTBoss]

Last night my son had two nightmares, after the second of which I could not fall back to sleep. I went downstairs to the couch to see if that would help, but it didn't. Thoughts of past screw-ups with certain women, or past grievances I've been holding onto all these years of various things, kept my mind chatter humming along and it just ended up pissing me off so much I decided to get up for the day.

Gym:

Lifting buddy is trying to show social dominance by grabbing my shoulder and shaking me while laughing/joking. The other day while resting on a machine, which I was facing, he tickled me from behind. That was weird.

I made a suggestion to one of his lifts today, and he blew me off. His explanation made zero sense. I wanted to say, "Hey, man, if I told you - a firefighter - that I know how to fight fires better than you, what would you say? Ok, then don't try to make it sound like you know more about lifting, progression, or program design when it comes to strength & conditioning." His whole demeanor was sour. Perhaps something else caused it - I saw him talking to the married fitness model who was going to tell him to shut down his flirtations. Who knows what she said. I took my leave shortly thereafter. He was doing lifts for other muscle groups than I was today, anyway, and if his training conflicts with mine, I go and do my own thing.

My wife's coworker was working out today - I saw her briefly yesterday before she left (but not long enough for anything but a brief exposure to the SDS) - and she used the lat pulldown right in front of me to...stretch?...I don't know what she was doing, but it kept her chest out and armpits exposed for a good 90 seconds. Not gonna lie, it was nice to look at. When she was leaving, she came and talked to one of my lifting partners (the other guy), who I know she's talked to/been friends with since before I met him. While she talked to him, I walked around her doing my thing, and her eyes kept flicking to me. We're on speaking terms, she's pretty darn good friends with my wife, but she seemed like a nervous little school girl around me. In fact, I felt she was hovering because she wanted to be around me, not talk to this other guy (though that feels kind of arrogant to say). So, she's fine talking to all these other guys like friends, but is nervous to talk to me? Hmmmm....I finally said, "Hey, how are you?" to her, and she just parroted it back to me, with a short of blank stare and little smile. I then went on to my next lift, and she took off.

Went to eat with my family after at a Cracker Barrel, and all the old ladies were staring at me. It was like the Hitchcock movie "The Birds," where the birds are all on their branches just staring, except they're old ladies instead, lol. Kinda creepy, frankly, to have 5 women all staring at you simultaneously.

Super cute waitress, maybe 20 years old, works on Thursdays. She didn't have our section, but I noticed that after we had sat there for awhile, she altered her return route to the kitchen to walk through our section, right past our table. It was the long way back, so that was notable. I don't know, for sure, if it actually had anything to do with me. I couldn't stare after her with my wife sitting right there and not get a kick to the shin, lol.

Wife has been a motor mouth, back to acting like we're dating and she's trying to impress me. It's like she wants my attention sooo baaad. I find it a tad annoying, which I feel a little bad about - hope she doesn't sense my annoyance too much. If so, she doesn't act like it.

Ran my loops when we got home, 1 masked, 1 hybrid, wired speakers .FLAC -50 db or so. Tried to nap, but my body was buzzing with so much energy flowing, I couldn't. It ended up being more like a long meditation with visuals of faces, and lady parts, in my mind's eye. There was a special concentration on my wife's coworker, so whatever is up with that.

[RTBoss]

Crap, totally forgot to include something else importannt from the gym:

I was checking out the married fitness model from afar, not feeling or thinking anything, when I was suddenly hit with a wave of...sorrow? Generalized emotion? The thought, "I'm sorry, I"m sorry!" came along with it - sorry for being attracted to her, sorry for sniping her? Then the feeling cleared, and as soon as it did, she started looking my way and giving me ass displays. It was as if I knew her attraction to me was inevitable, a certainty.

That was very interesting, especially this whole sort-of release, where a blockage - a moral blockage? - was potentially cleared.

[Shannon]

DMSI will have its way.

[RTBoss]

I noticed today that whenever I tried to consciously control my experiences related to DMSI, there was a shift in my thought process. "Trust your subconscious, let it decide, execute the script, and do its thing."

In other words, let go of conscious control, and trust that my subconscious will get it done without any conscious effort or direction on my part. It feels like a weight lifted off my shoulders, and has allowed me to increase the IDGAF attitude.

Any women who have, in the past, been consciously part of my desires are less important to me. I'll just let my subconscious take care of it, and sort it all out. After all, my subconscious is part of me. I'm done fighting it like it's some kind of separate entity.

[Shannon]

If only more people would realize that

[RTBoss]

My wife called from work tonight:

She talked to her coworker, who I see at the gym (GD she's smokin' hot). Apparently, my lifting buddy, who has been hitting on the fitness model, told said FM that his wife is completely OK with him stepping out on his marriage. (Not that the fitness model is...She told him "I have 2 kids, and a husband, and you think this is something that's gonna work - LOL!" but, this must be the conversation they have been having at the gym...)

WOW. This guy is something else.

First and foremost, he was with me when I sniped the girls at the bar in the bloom phase of 3.0.1. He told his wife it was MY idea to go there, when I was there b/c it was HIS idea. I didn't say shit, that's his lie. I did tell my wife. I don't even see what the big deal was, it's just a local Mexican restaurant hotspot. But, his wife is on his ass all the time b/c of his misadventures in TX while training for a firefighter position in the military. They almost divorced, b/c she looked at their mobile account activity and she saw a bunch of TX numbers. When she called them, girls answered. Long-story-short, she took him back, they had another child, and she is suspicious of every action and word. Hell, she's even had some sort of brain cancer the last year, with surgery and treatment at Mayo Clinic, and he's still pullin' this shit. He should have gone through with the divorce, but he's really in the shit now. (Or, should I say, SHE'S in the shit now?)

Clearly, he's up to his same old tricks. He doesn't just keep them from his wife, he keeps them from his friends. "Friends." But, clearly, he isn't very clever. He tries to seduce a woman who is good friends with the wife of her good friend, who just-so-happens to be MY wife - HIS friend. "I heard it through the grape vine," dumbass!

Obviously, my wife hates this dude at this point. Fuel on the fire, he reminds her of her ex - the guy who could schmooze anyone, while cheating on her and abusing her (physically and emotionally). And (not surprisingly) now uses all of this to justify why she's hated him all along - her intuition told her he was bad news. So, either her intuition is spot-on (which, in my experience, it always is), and/or I'm a really honest, good guy. That's what I'm hoping. I mean, I really DO love her with every fiber of my being. I really HAVE NOT cheated on her, nor plan to. I certainly have man-boners for many women, including those I know and those I don't...but, I think I'm getting to the point where I realize that my feelings for my wife and family truly overcome every other primal instinct I have, by having people like this in my life to show me lessons through contrast.

DMSI V3.1 and beyond will certainly tell the tale.

[Nox]

I don't know what Shannon has put into DMSI, but I'd think that the more you value and love a specific person that it actually enhances the effects. You're going to sexuality and reproductivility (is that a word?) screen out lesser options. Sincere and deep love is a game changer in deeper aspects. It's also a maintenance game, though.

And also, I do not believe that love is a purely material and chemical response, although it has roots and functions in it. I also don't believe that the universe and reality is based on love. Love is something you can choose to define and direct reality.

Edit: I agree with your unsaid statements Shannon. No additional info need be provided.

[Shannon]

I'd say you have it backwards on love. Love is not rooted in chemicals, it is experienced through the physical as a result of the focus shifting allowed by the chemicals. The chemicals allow your body to experience the nonphysical energy that is love, and correspond to its sensation of presence or lack thereof. But love exists regardless.

[Nox]

I'd say you have it backwards on love. Love is not rooted in chemicals, it is experienced through the physical as a result of the focus shifting allowed by the chemicals. The chemicals allow your body to experience the nonphysical energy that is love, and correspond to its sensation of presence or lack thereof. But love exists regardless.

I agree that love exists regardless.

For humans I do believe that love is rooted in the material as it is simply part of the human experience. A tree grows from a seed, the roots hold it to earth. Where that seed ultimately came from or where it'll go isn't the point. As long as the tree is a tree its a tree.

Now what's being connected to and experiencing the human robot is way different. But as far as the body, it's evolution and its use its all very much in the material unless certain actions or upgrades happen.

[Shannon]

If you were a robot, it would be much easier to achieve cooperation with subliminals.

[Shannon]

Lol that is true.

I must be a cyborg then

Nope, still it would be much easier to program you. You're a FAITFBMWSA. Fully Autonomous Independent Thinking Feeling Biological Machine With Self Awareness. It can be challenging to program some parts of those.