Well I'm somewhat new here. I've crept more than I've written. Since my 'concerns about AM6' post, I've actually started AM6. 8 days into stage 1 and listening to the ultrasonic as I write this. I want to share a little bit about myself:
I'm 28. Throughout childhood and the first two years of high school, I was the fat kid. This took a toll on my self-esteem, my social status, my love life (or lack thereof) and my overall identification as a man. My mother and her immediate family (the latter of whom I spent the most time with growing up) are largely beta, and my father—whom I've lived with for the past 14 years—is admirably alpha. I've done a lot of growing up in my 20s. I'm in the best shape of my life (but still not where I want to be) and my character is the strongest it's ever been (but built upon a weak foundation). I know how to improve my body, and I'm here to improve my mind. I've spent more time at home in my own company than I have out socializing. I've always had beta friends whose relations with women were minimal and pathetic or non-existent. I was never the cool guy or had cool friends. I hardly partied in high school or university. I've hardly had women in my life. I lost my virginity at 25. She was my first girlfriend, first kiss, first everything. Dated her for almost a year. Nothing before or since. In high school I turned down blatant opportunities for sex because I was self-conscious. I struggle deeply with my self-image and self-worth. I feel undeserving around beautiful women and resentful at times because they bring to the surface the pain of my own perceived inadequacy. I'm immature and inexperienced when it comes to sex and female relations because I wilfully neglected them for so long. I recognize that my thoughts, actions and behaviours are fundamentally beta and it's time to change that. Basically everything that is listed in terms of what AM6 addresses is what I want to change or reinforce about myself. AM6 is the inextricable groundwork for what I want most, which is to be comfortable with my body and sexuality, and highly successful with women in casual relationships. Hint hint as to my next planned subs.
Well thanks for putting up with the run-on format of my write-up. There's so much I needed to say and stopping to structure it would have gotten in the way.
I am open to your comments, product suggestions, support, whatever. Look forward to sharing my growth with you.
I'm 28. Throughout childhood and the first two years of high school, I was the fat kid. This took a toll on my self-esteem, my social status, my love life (or lack thereof) and my overall identification as a man. My mother and her immediate family (the latter of whom I spent the most time with growing up) are largely beta, and my father—whom I've lived with for the past 14 years—is admirably alpha. I've done a lot of growing up in my 20s. I'm in the best shape of my life (but still not where I want to be) and my character is the strongest it's ever been (but built upon a weak foundation). I know how to improve my body, and I'm here to improve my mind. I've spent more time at home in my own company than I have out socializing. I've always had beta friends whose relations with women were minimal and pathetic or non-existent. I was never the cool guy or had cool friends. I hardly partied in high school or university. I've hardly had women in my life. I lost my virginity at 25. She was my first girlfriend, first kiss, first everything. Dated her for almost a year. Nothing before or since. In high school I turned down blatant opportunities for sex because I was self-conscious. I struggle deeply with my self-image and self-worth. I feel undeserving around beautiful women and resentful at times because they bring to the surface the pain of my own perceived inadequacy. I'm immature and inexperienced when it comes to sex and female relations because I wilfully neglected them for so long. I recognize that my thoughts, actions and behaviours are fundamentally beta and it's time to change that. Basically everything that is listed in terms of what AM6 addresses is what I want to change or reinforce about myself. AM6 is the inextricable groundwork for what I want most, which is to be comfortable with my body and sexuality, and highly successful with women in casual relationships. Hint hint as to my next planned subs.
Well thanks for putting up with the run-on format of my write-up. There's so much I needed to say and stopping to structure it would have gotten in the way.
I am open to your comments, product suggestions, support, whatever. Look forward to sharing my growth with you.
