01-02-2019, 10:04 AM
Happy New Year!
Currently on SASRB. Start 5th cycle tomorrow night.
Have a raging morphine-drip buzzing my body right now. Also very horny. Wife has been on her monthly, but should be over soon.
Been a little irritable, but nothing terrible. My wife's been sensitive to criticism from me, like previous versions. Stark difference between USLM and DMSI. She gets over it, but stews until she gets an apology. That's just her personality - she needs resolution to move on.
NYE was weird. Had SIL/BIL over for dinner, card games, and drinks. So first and foremost, alcohol was involved in the evening. Probably the most I've drank in months.
SIL's body language was interesting. Started off with lots of open palm, open wrist, exposed neck. Eye contact got better as the night went on. My quick wit was on point all night, and had her laughing a lot. She also was picking on her husband in a way where it seemed like she found him annoying, or found aspects of his personality annoying and then used her quite sharp-and-dry wit to take him down a peg.
What was weird was how her body language shifted over the evening. She sat next to me at the table for card games (played Exploding Kittens and Cards Against Humanity). Her entire frame pointed toward me, and away from BIL. If I got up to get another beer, or use the bathroom, her foot on her top leg (legs were generally crossed) would brush my leg. She wouldn't move, so I was forced to brush against her. But as the night went on, she closed off her wrist and palm to me, and directed it toward her husband. Strangely, she kept her legs and toes pointed my direction. She even brought her legs up and spread them toward me a few times. It's like she was conflicted, and it showed in her body language.
Man, I'm distracted right now by the feeling of how much energy is flowing through my body and the body buzz from the morphine drip. It's actually affecting my ability to think clearly, lol!
Anyway - yesterday, my libido was high, and I easily succumbed to take care of it. I don't do so often, as I've been affected by The Wall, very much like how I don't desire to drink alcohol like I used to.
Weight is up a little, which I expected. I don't know what that means re: using fat as a fuel source for the aura, but perhaps that will ramp up as I execute more.
I'm glad 3.4 is a ways off. My greatest progress with 3.1 happened after months of use. I expect that to occur much quicker on 3.3, especially after H&C w/ FRM is in rotation. I always experienced more progress by switching back-and-forth between H&C and non-H&C versions.
Off to the gym. Only 3-4 months before the warm weather is here, more-or-less. Time to get to work.
Currently on SASRB. Start 5th cycle tomorrow night.
Have a raging morphine-drip buzzing my body right now. Also very horny. Wife has been on her monthly, but should be over soon.
Been a little irritable, but nothing terrible. My wife's been sensitive to criticism from me, like previous versions. Stark difference between USLM and DMSI. She gets over it, but stews until she gets an apology. That's just her personality - she needs resolution to move on.
NYE was weird. Had SIL/BIL over for dinner, card games, and drinks. So first and foremost, alcohol was involved in the evening. Probably the most I've drank in months.
SIL's body language was interesting. Started off with lots of open palm, open wrist, exposed neck. Eye contact got better as the night went on. My quick wit was on point all night, and had her laughing a lot. She also was picking on her husband in a way where it seemed like she found him annoying, or found aspects of his personality annoying and then used her quite sharp-and-dry wit to take him down a peg.
What was weird was how her body language shifted over the evening. She sat next to me at the table for card games (played Exploding Kittens and Cards Against Humanity). Her entire frame pointed toward me, and away from BIL. If I got up to get another beer, or use the bathroom, her foot on her top leg (legs were generally crossed) would brush my leg. She wouldn't move, so I was forced to brush against her. But as the night went on, she closed off her wrist and palm to me, and directed it toward her husband. Strangely, she kept her legs and toes pointed my direction. She even brought her legs up and spread them toward me a few times. It's like she was conflicted, and it showed in her body language.
Man, I'm distracted right now by the feeling of how much energy is flowing through my body and the body buzz from the morphine drip. It's actually affecting my ability to think clearly, lol!
Anyway - yesterday, my libido was high, and I easily succumbed to take care of it. I don't do so often, as I've been affected by The Wall, very much like how I don't desire to drink alcohol like I used to.
Weight is up a little, which I expected. I don't know what that means re: using fat as a fuel source for the aura, but perhaps that will ramp up as I execute more.
I'm glad 3.4 is a ways off. My greatest progress with 3.1 happened after months of use. I expect that to occur much quicker on 3.3, especially after H&C w/ FRM is in rotation. I always experienced more progress by switching back-and-forth between H&C and non-H&C versions.
Off to the gym. Only 3-4 months before the warm weather is here, more-or-less. Time to get to work.