06-13-2019, 09:56 PM
Day 210
I have not posted for like 40 days now. I missed few days of posting and then it was difficult to get on track. The thought about going online to the forum and when come online I read other threads also made me delay the posting again and again. I was also super busy due to birth of my daughter and some other family events.
Now when I look back at the effects, I feel that a lot of my fears have reduced dramatically. One was the fear / intimidation by people in uniform, police, security etc. I used to get scared, felt small on facing someone in uniform. Now I feel perfectly normal and do not have any fear. I behave just like when facing other people. Second is the fear to speak up or say something I want to say. Which brings me to confidence level. I am not sure whether it is the confidence level which has gone up or the fear has reduced so much that I can speak my mind. Both above two factors have made my life a lot more relaxed.
On the business front, things are progressing slowly. I still feel that I am sabotaging my success by not spending enough time on the business. I am still afraid of success or money or something. Whenever I plan to work on the business, I spend few time and then wander else where.
I am currently promoting my business but sadly it seems I have run out of money. I will be receiving some payments in the coming days so things will get better, but I estimate it is going to be a tight situation for sometime in the near future. I am looking for some small things on the net which I can do in spare time to generate some cash.
I have not posted for like 40 days now. I missed few days of posting and then it was difficult to get on track. The thought about going online to the forum and when come online I read other threads also made me delay the posting again and again. I was also super busy due to birth of my daughter and some other family events.
Now when I look back at the effects, I feel that a lot of my fears have reduced dramatically. One was the fear / intimidation by people in uniform, police, security etc. I used to get scared, felt small on facing someone in uniform. Now I feel perfectly normal and do not have any fear. I behave just like when facing other people. Second is the fear to speak up or say something I want to say. Which brings me to confidence level. I am not sure whether it is the confidence level which has gone up or the fear has reduced so much that I can speak my mind. Both above two factors have made my life a lot more relaxed.
On the business front, things are progressing slowly. I still feel that I am sabotaging my success by not spending enough time on the business. I am still afraid of success or money or something. Whenever I plan to work on the business, I spend few time and then wander else where.
I am currently promoting my business but sadly it seems I have run out of money. I will be receiving some payments in the coming days so things will get better, but I estimate it is going to be a tight situation for sometime in the near future. I am looking for some small things on the net which I can do in spare time to generate some cash.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...