04-10-2024, 11:49 AM
I’ve come a long way, but I’m still frustrated. In social situations I feel too needy, too stifled. I don’t feel like I can steer things in a positive win win most of the time and I feel like the only power I have when I get triggered is to walk away or stop talking. Sure I feel less pain and more free than before, but there’s a huge difference between neutrality and amazingness. I don’t want to settle for mediocrity. I want things to be fucking awesome.