Sprial you did 2010 correct? Oh, and were you fairly active on the CS forums?
The improvements subtly grew. Some of the negativity was brutal. Most of the time is was none-light. I remember two nights in particular were absolutely harsh. Words from others, events, and my actions were playing in my head on loop. I was re-living the moment. My inner voice had quite the colorful vocabulary too. Hanging out with friends, relaxing music, mirror affirmations, and listening to the sub helped enormous amounts with coping with getting blasted in all directions.
The oddest thing I find is the pattern of my thought. The order and choice of words has blown me away. They are spontaneous and instant. It is almost like an unexpected quiet commentary. I am having trouble thinking of an exact moment. But they are so uplifting.
Day two of the second stage on stream tonight! lol!
The improvements subtly grew. Some of the negativity was brutal. Most of the time is was none-light. I remember two nights in particular were absolutely harsh. Words from others, events, and my actions were playing in my head on loop. I was re-living the moment. My inner voice had quite the colorful vocabulary too. Hanging out with friends, relaxing music, mirror affirmations, and listening to the sub helped enormous amounts with coping with getting blasted in all directions.
The oddest thing I find is the pattern of my thought. The order and choice of words has blown me away. They are spontaneous and instant. It is almost like an unexpected quiet commentary. I am having trouble thinking of an exact moment. But they are so uplifting.
Day two of the second stage on stream tonight! lol!
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