02-09-2011, 11:54 AM
I am a little bit overdue for an update so here it is:
I slowly come to realize how low my self-esteem and self-image used to be. Lately, both now are significantly rising and then some. My body language is 90% very relaxed, the other 10% is due to my shoulders tensing up. I guess some insecurities still need to be dealt with. I am speaking much louder, "um" is siezing to exist when I start to speak. I have taken up two new hobbies and another I am starting next month.
There have been several moments where I had to get quiet/alone time because I was on border-line between anger and rage. When BS or something irritates me I try to make it stop (i.e. somebody making obnoxious noises). I use to try to ignore it, now I calmy ask them to quit. I am consciously && without thinking about doing what I want, attracting women into my life by simply telling them her and I should hang out and they are loving it (something I practically never did). The respect I recieve from other men has greatly increased. A while back, I could hardly hold eye contact with strangers in the car next to me, people passing by in hall/sidewalk, ect. now I give them women a seductive smile lol and to men nod. Before even one glance at the person next to me made me very anxious and I am now wondering why that was.
And that is my update, I hope you enjoyed it!
I slowly come to realize how low my self-esteem and self-image used to be. Lately, both now are significantly rising and then some. My body language is 90% very relaxed, the other 10% is due to my shoulders tensing up. I guess some insecurities still need to be dealt with. I am speaking much louder, "um" is siezing to exist when I start to speak. I have taken up two new hobbies and another I am starting next month.
There have been several moments where I had to get quiet/alone time because I was on border-line between anger and rage. When BS or something irritates me I try to make it stop (i.e. somebody making obnoxious noises). I use to try to ignore it, now I calmy ask them to quit. I am consciously && without thinking about doing what I want, attracting women into my life by simply telling them her and I should hang out and they are loving it (something I practically never did). The respect I recieve from other men has greatly increased. A while back, I could hardly hold eye contact with strangers in the car next to me, people passing by in hall/sidewalk, ect. now I give them women a seductive smile lol and to men nod. Before even one glance at the person next to me made me very anxious and I am now wondering why that was.
And that is my update, I hope you enjoyed it!
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