06-25-2015, 04:58 AM
Somewhere around a week to go of Stage 2.
Notable depression which forced me to really face up to hard realities and begin to be very pragmatic, understadning my limitations
Reorientation of life coontinues, echoeing what has been said on this forum about removing the need for anything. Coming to understand that needing things creates blocks to obtaining those. Releasing is really useful for removing the un necessary clutter around desires. For example, i've been alone for a while. did some releasing, and within a week a girl was asking to come visit and stay with me. eventually she came, from abroad, literally just for one thing. every desire and want seems to be cluttered up with so much other unecessary stuff. I want a girldfirend becomes i want someone to validate me, i want to prove i'm not lame, hope theres nothing wrong with me because i don't have one, having one will prove i'm ok. removing all of that frees up a lot of energy and creates clarity on what you want. then when it happens its great but it's not meeting a wierd ego need for validation so that validation buzz isn't there. I think this can then create another block because the ego was looking forward to that but then you have to remember to let it go again so that you can have more of what's real and good for your life.
Business wise not much is happening. have redeveloped a property, but couldnt do much on it last few months. making contacts to take that business forward. have a tech business which lost steam but is picking up again - i will take it to an incubator to see if i can get some funding/mentorship. Meanwhile I also know very clearly that i want to do something physical, even if it's on the side, as a part of my vocation. so looking to train on the side to become a teacher of one of the physical disciplines i'm in to.
That's about it.
Notable depression which forced me to really face up to hard realities and begin to be very pragmatic, understadning my limitations
Reorientation of life coontinues, echoeing what has been said on this forum about removing the need for anything. Coming to understand that needing things creates blocks to obtaining those. Releasing is really useful for removing the un necessary clutter around desires. For example, i've been alone for a while. did some releasing, and within a week a girl was asking to come visit and stay with me. eventually she came, from abroad, literally just for one thing. every desire and want seems to be cluttered up with so much other unecessary stuff. I want a girldfirend becomes i want someone to validate me, i want to prove i'm not lame, hope theres nothing wrong with me because i don't have one, having one will prove i'm ok. removing all of that frees up a lot of energy and creates clarity on what you want. then when it happens its great but it's not meeting a wierd ego need for validation so that validation buzz isn't there. I think this can then create another block because the ego was looking forward to that but then you have to remember to let it go again so that you can have more of what's real and good for your life.
Business wise not much is happening. have redeveloped a property, but couldnt do much on it last few months. making contacts to take that business forward. have a tech business which lost steam but is picking up again - i will take it to an incubator to see if i can get some funding/mentorship. Meanwhile I also know very clearly that i want to do something physical, even if it's on the side, as a part of my vocation. so looking to train on the side to become a teacher of one of the physical disciplines i'm in to.
That's about it.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
