(04-12-2015, 12:44 AM)Shannon Wrote: And you spent 6 months using it? Is EHPRA the sub you feel like you got the most growth and benefit from?
Yup. But I was only listening an average of 8 hours a day. It was only within the last month that I've really upped the listening time.
I'd say it definitely feels like I got the most growth from it. Maybe I just need a lot of time with it.
I don't really know the extent of my problems. I know a few times I've talked to my Mom she has the exact same issues as me. And she never really overcame them, just learned to live with them. So I've probably just internalized all her subconscious dysfunctional patterns over the years.
After having a long think about it, I think I have a strong fear of failure. When I screw up or can't do something right I tend to be really hard on myself. It's led me to avoid trying new things unless I have a certainty I could perform them with competency. On top of that I also fear the backlash of performing poorly in a job and being ripped apart for it. It's just a lot of stress even before I actually take on the activity. Maybe I never developed my self esteem enough to see that failure or mistakes aren't a reflection of my worth as a person.
