04-11-2015, 09:00 AM
Stage 1 Day 28
I'm going through a Rollercoaster of emotions it's like I am chicken lol. From anger to aggression , to love sadness etc.
But I seem to be stable now , I'm hungry in terms of success. I know what I have to do now to reach the highest level of alpha I can reach. No matter which way I look at it martial arts is In the path , it's been there way before subs but I was to passive.
My goal is to quit my current job , move and learn and become a master or advanced student. I think it's a fear , I may to pstec this one. I have been thinking about my future as well and it involves women, yea the sub makes me higher value find my path but if women didn't exist I'd be the one of the first ones gone.
I'm also getting Amoged hard today , but I am brushing it off. I am questioning alot of things as well. It seems like most people I talk are getting married . I've always been against marriage so I'm thinking about my future in terms of that. Also how this is a lonesome path , women or friends. I realized with experience many of those around me are insecure and cannot be happy for those that are successful. It's hard to believe that there are people out there like that , fuck them.
Other then all these thoughts just thinking about success and women , how I can incorporate both of them into my life , a life of freedom of sorts.
I'm going through a Rollercoaster of emotions it's like I am chicken lol. From anger to aggression , to love sadness etc.
But I seem to be stable now , I'm hungry in terms of success. I know what I have to do now to reach the highest level of alpha I can reach. No matter which way I look at it martial arts is In the path , it's been there way before subs but I was to passive.
My goal is to quit my current job , move and learn and become a master or advanced student. I think it's a fear , I may to pstec this one. I have been thinking about my future as well and it involves women, yea the sub makes me higher value find my path but if women didn't exist I'd be the one of the first ones gone.
I'm also getting Amoged hard today , but I am brushing it off. I am questioning alot of things as well. It seems like most people I talk are getting married . I've always been against marriage so I'm thinking about my future in terms of that. Also how this is a lonesome path , women or friends. I realized with experience many of those around me are insecure and cannot be happy for those that are successful. It's hard to believe that there are people out there like that , fuck them.
Other then all these thoughts just thinking about success and women , how I can incorporate both of them into my life , a life of freedom of sorts.
It always seems impossible until it's done."_ Nelson Mandela
"Continuous improvement is better then delayed perfection."_ Mark Twain
"We change the world not by what we say or do, but as a consequence of what we have become. " _ Dr. David Hawkins
