05-01-2010, 10:58 AM
(This post was last modified: 05-01-2010, 11:01 AM by WildFlower.)
I'm 15 days into stage 4 now, a few details on what I'm noticing:
Stage 4 is definitely soothing the alpha image out. None of the 'on-edge', 'aggressive' tendencies are left that where brought about by earlier stages. The alpha image is feeling completely and utterly my natural state now. I don't do something differently and then think "hmm is this the alpha sub bringing out this new trait?" like I have with the past couple of stages. It feels completely, 100% natural. It is natural. I just feel like me. This makes being introspective actually quite tricky - especially as I no longer feel 'tense' (that's the best word I could come up with to describe the feeling of mild-irritation that bubbled away just below the surface I got from stage 1 and 2 in particular) Me and the subliminal have become 1 so to speak. We are singing from the same hymn sheet, so I just feel I would normally. The beliefs don't feel alien to me as they've solidified now as my own. When I look back to January though, it's very clear there has been a very dramatic shift towards alpha.
In my social life I'm the alpha in 95% of situations, other alphas treat me as their equal, and some even look up to me a little bit. Alphas I know previously to using the sub treat me with a lot more respect. I was expecting to encounter a few power struggles in my social life but the transition to the level of other alphas was very natural and smooth so I wasn't met with rejection. I'm not the alpha at work, but I didn't and don't expect to be. I'm 21 and 6 months into the job, my colleagues and bosses are 30-50 years old, have been working there years and hold much higher positions than myself. I think, eventually, once I've completed the alpha sub and used other subs I want to I may request a title called "workplace confidence" or something. It isn't a priority I want to address with subliminals right now though, so no biggie.
As I said in the first paragraph the effects of Stage 4 have so far been very organic and natural feeling. Apart from 1 effect which has surprised me. The recently released "approach anxiety" sub was one of the ones on my to-buy list for once I've completed the Alpha sub. I don't think I need it any more. Since starting stage 4, not only do I not have approach anxiety I actually feel the need to start approaching people. It's just happens. I approach people without even thinking, I don't even think "I want to approach that girl" I just approach her. I get a huge psychological boost when I do approach too, as if my mind is rewarding me for following through with a belief it holds about itself. I've never behaved like this before, not ever in my life, only since starting stage 4. I'm a bit taken back by it. I was expecting the Alpha sub to make me more confident in all situations (so therefore naturally approaching too, but I didn't specifically expect it to deal with approaching directly) but I did not ever expect to actually seek out approaching sub-consciously as a fun thing to do. Is there something about approaching in the script of stage 4, and not the previous 3 stages? Or am I just experiencing a wild side effect. I can't think what it would be other than the sub.
Stage 4 is definitely soothing the alpha image out. None of the 'on-edge', 'aggressive' tendencies are left that where brought about by earlier stages. The alpha image is feeling completely and utterly my natural state now. I don't do something differently and then think "hmm is this the alpha sub bringing out this new trait?" like I have with the past couple of stages. It feels completely, 100% natural. It is natural. I just feel like me. This makes being introspective actually quite tricky - especially as I no longer feel 'tense' (that's the best word I could come up with to describe the feeling of mild-irritation that bubbled away just below the surface I got from stage 1 and 2 in particular) Me and the subliminal have become 1 so to speak. We are singing from the same hymn sheet, so I just feel I would normally. The beliefs don't feel alien to me as they've solidified now as my own. When I look back to January though, it's very clear there has been a very dramatic shift towards alpha.
In my social life I'm the alpha in 95% of situations, other alphas treat me as their equal, and some even look up to me a little bit. Alphas I know previously to using the sub treat me with a lot more respect. I was expecting to encounter a few power struggles in my social life but the transition to the level of other alphas was very natural and smooth so I wasn't met with rejection. I'm not the alpha at work, but I didn't and don't expect to be. I'm 21 and 6 months into the job, my colleagues and bosses are 30-50 years old, have been working there years and hold much higher positions than myself. I think, eventually, once I've completed the alpha sub and used other subs I want to I may request a title called "workplace confidence" or something. It isn't a priority I want to address with subliminals right now though, so no biggie.
As I said in the first paragraph the effects of Stage 4 have so far been very organic and natural feeling. Apart from 1 effect which has surprised me. The recently released "approach anxiety" sub was one of the ones on my to-buy list for once I've completed the Alpha sub. I don't think I need it any more. Since starting stage 4, not only do I not have approach anxiety I actually feel the need to start approaching people. It's just happens. I approach people without even thinking, I don't even think "I want to approach that girl" I just approach her. I get a huge psychological boost when I do approach too, as if my mind is rewarding me for following through with a belief it holds about itself. I've never behaved like this before, not ever in my life, only since starting stage 4. I'm a bit taken back by it. I was expecting the Alpha sub to make me more confident in all situations (so therefore naturally approaching too, but I didn't specifically expect it to deal with approaching directly) but I did not ever expect to actually seek out approaching sub-consciously as a fun thing to do. Is there something about approaching in the script of stage 4, and not the previous 3 stages? Or am I just experiencing a wild side effect. I can't think what it would be other than the sub.
“To be normal is the ideal aim of the unsuccessful.” - Carl Jung
