01-12-2015, 09:53 AM
So a couple weeks in...
So far all I can say is that something is happening. People are treating me very differently.
It's almost like AM taken up a 10 notches. I walk into a room and people assume I'm in charge.
My assertiveness is at a whole new level too. It feels impossible to let people manipulate me and waste my time. It's like something in my brain simply won't allow that anymore, no matter the consequences.
To illustrate:
Someone tried manipulating me with "kindness" to get me to do what she wanted. I was kind back but told her under no circumstances would I be doing that. The truth is she's burned bridges with everyone else and views me as the only person she can manipulate because I am a kind person (most of the time).
She responded with "why, don't you like me anymore". I responded that "it has nothing to do with liking. I like you just as before. But, it has to do with showing respect for other people's time and energy of which you are not showing respect".
The weird thing is that it just came out. In the past I would have weighed the foreseable consequences and decided on the smoothest path. This time it was like it wasn't even a choice. My mind kept saying "MY TIME WILL NOT BE WASTED".
So far all I can say is that something is happening. People are treating me very differently.
It's almost like AM taken up a 10 notches. I walk into a room and people assume I'm in charge.
My assertiveness is at a whole new level too. It feels impossible to let people manipulate me and waste my time. It's like something in my brain simply won't allow that anymore, no matter the consequences.
To illustrate:
Someone tried manipulating me with "kindness" to get me to do what she wanted. I was kind back but told her under no circumstances would I be doing that. The truth is she's burned bridges with everyone else and views me as the only person she can manipulate because I am a kind person (most of the time).
She responded with "why, don't you like me anymore". I responded that "it has nothing to do with liking. I like you just as before. But, it has to do with showing respect for other people's time and energy of which you are not showing respect".
The weird thing is that it just came out. In the past I would have weighed the foreseable consequences and decided on the smoothest path. This time it was like it wasn't even a choice. My mind kept saying "MY TIME WILL NOT BE WASTED".
