01-08-2015, 07:13 PM
AM6 Stage 6 Day 27
Well I really don't feel the urge to write how the journey goes on so far. But I have improved dramatically. But the feeling inside is " I have been always like this". My friends constantly asking me what to do or not. My gf asks me what she should do or what avoid. If I like to talk with her that's ok if I don't want to talk with her that's ok with her too. AMAZING !!
Sometimes I became really furious but within few moments I became again zen. My calmness is my power. I read more books in stage 6 than ever my life. My procrastination has improved finally. I am happy but still a lot to achieve regarding productivity.
I have been noticed by few girls but it didn't lead to sex or anything. I am quite comfortable to talk any girl .. any girls i mean LITERALLY any girll. When I used to start my work, i feel palpitation couple of hours. I had few negative thoughts jumbling around my head but now it's all gone. I am calm, confident and assertive. One day night guard asked me to help him to stop few drunk people because he felt I am the only strong guy who can help him. I watched PORN 4 times in the last 6 months. My morning wood came back. I feel inside that my orgasm will be way better than before. But I did not get laid within AM6 and I did not go any club either. Lots of reading, making plans that's how I spend most of my time now. When my friends make fun of me , I don't take it personally at all. I feel I have nothing to do, I even feel lazy to respond back rather working my own stuff. People become more and more frank with me.
PHYSICALLY I was stronger before even sub BUT I had low confidence but now my my mind body connection is superb. I am full of energy thanks to MEDITATION too.
I prioritise my personal growth more than anything else. I have superb ego-balance than before. I came to realize i cannot control my life situations but i can control my emotions and reactions. I have very less fear, guilt, shame. I take responsibility of my life shamelessly. When I am wrong , I am wrong it's ok I am human not angel. I have better overall awareness of my strengths and weakness and accept them confidently. I love my PROCESS of becoming better version of me. I am prepared and i don't mind taking the road less traveled. Most importantly I am SELF-RELIANT AND INDEPENDENT.
Well I really don't feel the urge to write how the journey goes on so far. But I have improved dramatically. But the feeling inside is " I have been always like this". My friends constantly asking me what to do or not. My gf asks me what she should do or what avoid. If I like to talk with her that's ok if I don't want to talk with her that's ok with her too. AMAZING !!
Sometimes I became really furious but within few moments I became again zen. My calmness is my power. I read more books in stage 6 than ever my life. My procrastination has improved finally. I am happy but still a lot to achieve regarding productivity.
I have been noticed by few girls but it didn't lead to sex or anything. I am quite comfortable to talk any girl .. any girls i mean LITERALLY any girll. When I used to start my work, i feel palpitation couple of hours. I had few negative thoughts jumbling around my head but now it's all gone. I am calm, confident and assertive. One day night guard asked me to help him to stop few drunk people because he felt I am the only strong guy who can help him. I watched PORN 4 times in the last 6 months. My morning wood came back. I feel inside that my orgasm will be way better than before. But I did not get laid within AM6 and I did not go any club either. Lots of reading, making plans that's how I spend most of my time now. When my friends make fun of me , I don't take it personally at all. I feel I have nothing to do, I even feel lazy to respond back rather working my own stuff. People become more and more frank with me.
PHYSICALLY I was stronger before even sub BUT I had low confidence but now my my mind body connection is superb. I am full of energy thanks to MEDITATION too.
I prioritise my personal growth more than anything else. I have superb ego-balance than before. I came to realize i cannot control my life situations but i can control my emotions and reactions. I have very less fear, guilt, shame. I take responsibility of my life shamelessly. When I am wrong , I am wrong it's ok I am human not angel. I have better overall awareness of my strengths and weakness and accept them confidently. I love my PROCESS of becoming better version of me. I am prepared and i don't mind taking the road less traveled. Most importantly I am SELF-RELIANT AND INDEPENDENT.
