12-09-2014, 06:54 PM
Stage 1 weeks 3- 4
Wow noticing more changes some in response to a actual situation as it is happening others are after the fact, kinda of how the hell did that get there, or did I just say that,did I just do that.
the looks from women are getting stronger, it doesn't matter if with partners, husbands, boyfriends,there's that pause in the conversation, a halt in movement, the incline of the head ,the lean in to my sight-line, and lastly the Smile sometimes openly and some times to themselves - the one that says busted
another thing I'm getting is women asking for my phone number which I never remember or hardly ever carry my phone out with me, when I say I cant remember, its like what's your email then,and they go on and on until they get it. what makes me laugh is that I'm no even trying to flirt or Interested in doing so and they have been very attractive girls,and its like a professional setting/ business seminar, wasn't even talking to them at the time, but when I did something went on. just a few words, bang ,
the sub works on your presence, gives solidity, creates an outline and people feel it, this keeps coming up conversations, your always so calm, steady, so you gain a certain gravitas, they sense this, its an unspoken re assurance that things will be all right, or they'll be OK. its like you are standing up within yourself , by yourself, for yourself but by doing that you are actually helping them to do the same .
my voice went unaccountably deep a couple of days ago and is sliding around the lower end of the register, gone back to normal- ish but like a work in progress.
couple of interesting show downs at work which were forecast within a dream I had about my bosses making unreasonable demands. their appearance kept changing with that of former employers, I think the sub was bringing up behaviour issues around status, leadership and self determination, I've pretty much made up my mind to leave in January before the big guns kick in( stage 2 -3) to find something more in alignment with who I'm becoming and I really feel excited and good about it.
only a few more days of of stage 1 so will post final accounts shortly
"I never saved anything for the swim back"
Wow noticing more changes some in response to a actual situation as it is happening others are after the fact, kinda of how the hell did that get there, or did I just say that,did I just do that.
the looks from women are getting stronger, it doesn't matter if with partners, husbands, boyfriends,there's that pause in the conversation, a halt in movement, the incline of the head ,the lean in to my sight-line, and lastly the Smile sometimes openly and some times to themselves - the one that says busted
another thing I'm getting is women asking for my phone number which I never remember or hardly ever carry my phone out with me, when I say I cant remember, its like what's your email then,and they go on and on until they get it. what makes me laugh is that I'm no even trying to flirt or Interested in doing so and they have been very attractive girls,and its like a professional setting/ business seminar, wasn't even talking to them at the time, but when I did something went on. just a few words, bang ,
the sub works on your presence, gives solidity, creates an outline and people feel it, this keeps coming up conversations, your always so calm, steady, so you gain a certain gravitas, they sense this, its an unspoken re assurance that things will be all right, or they'll be OK. its like you are standing up within yourself , by yourself, for yourself but by doing that you are actually helping them to do the same .
my voice went unaccountably deep a couple of days ago and is sliding around the lower end of the register, gone back to normal- ish but like a work in progress.
couple of interesting show downs at work which were forecast within a dream I had about my bosses making unreasonable demands. their appearance kept changing with that of former employers, I think the sub was bringing up behaviour issues around status, leadership and self determination, I've pretty much made up my mind to leave in January before the big guns kick in( stage 2 -3) to find something more in alignment with who I'm becoming and I really feel excited and good about it.
only a few more days of of stage 1 so will post final accounts shortly
"I never saved anything for the swim back"
