Chopp's Search for a Perfect Storm of Pleasure - AM6 Journey

[Chopp]

Stage 1 Day 16

One thing I've noticed is that my dreams are much more intense when I sleep with the masked vs the ultrasonic. I know the ultrasonic works with my speakers, because I can see it with a frequency tester. Regardless, I'm going to stick with the masked tracks for the rest of the sub.

I'm feeling a lot of frustration and some resentment these days. Just seeing happy couples seems to piss me off. After reading about pstec, I picked up some of the tools to see how they work. I'm been happy with the results so far, but I'm hesitant to clear everything, fearing that it might interfere with the natural progression of AM6.

Speaking of frustration, I'm just going to lay them out here. Maybe some of you can knock some sense into me...

1. I live in a suburb area outside of a large city, and I could go weeks without seeing a single female (especially attractive) around here. That is understandable, since these communities are full of married couples with kids. I can't move because of my kids' school, plus I want to be close to them when they are with their mom. It would be nice to live somewhere where I could just walk out the door and be around other people. As it is, the only bars within miles are full of men and married women.

2. I tried Tinder for a couple of weeks, and got zero freaking hits. Wtf. Is that normal near a big city?

3. Am I totally invisible to women, or are they intimidated by me? I'm 6'2" and 175lbs, and fairly fit. I pay attention to my body language, and try to smile at women, but the only response I get is looking at the floor, or perhaps a very subtle smile and then they look down. They never even try to hold eye contact. That is hard to read, and is frustrating when it has happened year after year...

I'm willing to make changes and take risks, and I'm hoping this sub will point me in the right direction. As of right now, I can really feel the effects of years of being alone.