07-04-2014, 01:01 AM
(07-02-2014, 08:05 PM)Shannon Wrote: It sounds like you have chosen a sub that conflicts with some of your major goals, because I guarantee you, your perfect sexual lover will spend your time on sex. A lot.
Also, if you're serious about manifesting her, use the program until she shows up and you're sure about it. Otherwise, don't be surprised if she doesn't show up, or she shows up at some longer than expected time into the future.
From the beginning, and before buying the sub, one part of me was a bit concerned about possible conflict with my goals from meeting the PSL. I want sex, a lot, and I want my perfect lover too. I am pretty serious about it. Yet, am I wiling to give up my goals for that? The truth is I don't know, but I think it is more likely no that I don't want to give up on my goals. I want to have both, but it could be asking too much, I suppose.
Second, I've been thinking about this, and I was wondering if my perfect lover can be only based on sex. And I was also wondering if love in general (not the love between family, but a love between a man and woman sense) can be based only on sex for me. Honestly, I don't know, because I don't have any experience in this area. And maybe sex can't be the only factor for me. Maybe it can be. Maybe, I've chosen a wrong sub to use, and maybe not.
These thoughts are appearing more as I had a class today on Euthanasia. And it got me thinking more about all of these. Is what I am looking for really something that I am looking for? Or am I chasing an illusion that seems to be something that I want, which in reality, is not something that fulfills me wholly? (The thought also applies to my goals, dreams, and as well as what I am expecting/wanting from the sub.)
Perhaps all of these can be seen as signs of my subconscious and conscious mind resisting to the sub. Perhaps, it may be that I am genuinely having some good thoughts.
Anyway, I feel that the time may not be perfect to meet my perfect lover at the moment that I am forced to leave the country by the end of 2015 at the latest due to the military requirement. (This is absolutely fxxxed up. All my psychologists, psychiatrists, counselors think that military isn't my thing, and in fact, I wouldn't fit there. Heck, even my classmates have trouble imagining me in military, other than me being a commander or general, if they give a big if. And I'm talking about a draft here, so being a lowest ranking soldier, unless I enlist myself as an officer, which is about 1.5 times longer.) At least, I have less than a year here before I graduate, and I don't know where I will be going for the graduate school, but I will more likely be somewhere else than in this state. (Not because I hate the state, but unless I get into law, all other good schools seem to be located in the other state for the graduate programs I'm currently looking at.) Given this, it's a good question to ask whether I should continue using the sub or not.
And lastly, I have a question for Shannon. If I stop the program, and switch to some other program (let's say either AM or LTU,) will my progress of AYPSL be all gone? And if I do want to use the sub in the future to manifest the PSL, will it mean that I will be starting from the scratch again? And lastly, given that you read my journal (at least a few posts) what do you think is better fitted program for me, AM or LTU? Should I do both? Or do you have a better alternative in your mind? Maniac told me to consider LTU as AM can be too much to handle in a situation where I need to focus (I suppose my academic work can count as one), but I would also like to ask for an opinion from the creator and the master of subliminal.
And Shannon, thanks for your input, and thank you in advance for your future input.
