06-28-2014, 07:28 AM
Today is the last day of stage 4. Since last posting I've had a few days where I felt a little bit lost. But it disappeared pretty quickly. Besides of that there is not much more happened. I've had one day where almost all the guys were looking at me. Not in a way they are interested, but it was still strange.
Yesterday I had a crazy dream. I was in a car garage with someone and there were six big spiders. Five of them disappeared (I believe we killed them) but one had escaped. After that the scene changed, it was like someone want to make a movie out of this. We wanted to kill the last spider, it was a really big one, but we couldn't find them. Someone said that it will only show up when I don't expect it. However, I think the dream had something to do with fear, because I fear spiders (and big spider = big fear). But I don't know what it is. People? The life? Women? Well, the name of the last spider was "Guilia"...(yeah....f***ing crazy....), so maybe women. But I can't tell for sure.
Let's go to the summary. What did stage 4 bring to me?
- more confidence
- more wellbeing
- more positive attitude
- it looks like I am more approachable
- more value(?) (Don't know how to explain this one)
- refinement on the rest neediness
- care even less for unimportant things
- still caring for important things without being affected to much in a negative way
Some of the point are refinements from previous stages. However, I am happy to start stage 5 tomorrow.
Yesterday I had a crazy dream. I was in a car garage with someone and there were six big spiders. Five of them disappeared (I believe we killed them) but one had escaped. After that the scene changed, it was like someone want to make a movie out of this. We wanted to kill the last spider, it was a really big one, but we couldn't find them. Someone said that it will only show up when I don't expect it. However, I think the dream had something to do with fear, because I fear spiders (and big spider = big fear). But I don't know what it is. People? The life? Women? Well, the name of the last spider was "Guilia"...(yeah....f***ing crazy....), so maybe women. But I can't tell for sure.
Let's go to the summary. What did stage 4 bring to me?
- more confidence
- more wellbeing
- more positive attitude
- it looks like I am more approachable
- more value(?) (Don't know how to explain this one)
- refinement on the rest neediness
- care even less for unimportant things
- still caring for important things without being affected to much in a negative way
Some of the point are refinements from previous stages. However, I am happy to start stage 5 tomorrow.
