06-26-2014, 06:11 PM
(06-25-2014, 06:58 PM)ben123456305 Wrote: Stage 5 day 19 6/25/14
-found out my fav alcoholic drink is Guinness.
-my gramps is in the hospital. the vibe of the hospital is really sickening for me.
-When I was in the hospital something dawned to me. it was along the lines of "It is my own responsibility to get what I want. I have the ability to because im a part of the whole". It was really spiritual and i felt weird. a mix of calmness and assuredness in myself while fear for my gramp's life. the realization really gave me a feeling of having a purpose in life instead of feeling lost.
Every time I go to the hospital for myself I feel very grateful to be alive. Almost like I'm being held in the loving hands of the universe, or humanity. Seeing all the other people in hospitals who are worse off than me makes me sad and almost feel like I shouldn't be there, but in a grateful sort of way.
