06-19-2014, 11:27 PM
Two things I noticed today.
First, people are initiating actions more to me. What I mean by this is on the street. I encountered several people on the way to school, and all of them either say hi, or something longer. When they didn't, they would smile at me. This happened to me on a few occasions in the past, but not in the way that everybody I encountered on the street acknowledged me and initiated actions like saying hi or smiling at me.
Second, I did something that I would normally not do, which is to get involved in people's conversation and be part of it. I made it to the school early today, and when I made it to the class, there were one girl and an older woman talking. I found that their topic of discussion was something that I also have quite a bit of knowledge to share it. So I participated in the conversation, and it was really smooth. Normally it isn't that smooth, and normally I don't hijack the conversation. So this was something new.
Third, my conversation became bold or bolder. During the break, I began a conversation with the older woman, and the conversation topic turned into something about sex: about my experience of having so much sex around me (while not myself experiencing the act). So I shared how I had had caught several couples having sex in a men's shower, catching my RA having sex, and etc.... This was quite shocking as I normally don't share this, maybe I shared this with 2~3 people at max. And I never talked to a woman anything related to sex. The good thing though, the woman didn't seem to be offended and we had a good laugh. I was amazed that I had balls to carry this out, when there were many other students in the room. Keep in mind, though, I am not attracted to her, nor I wanted to necessarily steer the conversation into the talk of sex around my life. It just happened naturally.
And lastly, I feel that I am becoming Alpha. I may be wrong about this, but I noticed that I am becoming bolder, starting to be less effected by others' opinions although I still would like to be nice that has been my nature. I also feel that people respect me more, and etc..... For this, I talk to more people, and I notice that I initiate talks quite more often than in the past. And lastly, I feel that my obsession with particular women (i.e. the hot girl in the class) or my obsession with women in general is in decline. This is quite funny, as this sub isn't about being alpha. Now, I am seriously wondering what AM6 would be like, and intrigued to start once I am done with this program, or decide to finish it.
I bought Mark Manson's Model, and begun reading it. It's an interesting thing to read, and I would take some other recommendations, if there are other good reads out there.
p.s. Oh yeah, I've seen people talking about the dreams of aliens or extraterrestrial dreams. I had two of these, in one I was communicating with aliens, and in the other one, I was an alien.
First, people are initiating actions more to me. What I mean by this is on the street. I encountered several people on the way to school, and all of them either say hi, or something longer. When they didn't, they would smile at me. This happened to me on a few occasions in the past, but not in the way that everybody I encountered on the street acknowledged me and initiated actions like saying hi or smiling at me.
Second, I did something that I would normally not do, which is to get involved in people's conversation and be part of it. I made it to the school early today, and when I made it to the class, there were one girl and an older woman talking. I found that their topic of discussion was something that I also have quite a bit of knowledge to share it. So I participated in the conversation, and it was really smooth. Normally it isn't that smooth, and normally I don't hijack the conversation. So this was something new.
Third, my conversation became bold or bolder. During the break, I began a conversation with the older woman, and the conversation topic turned into something about sex: about my experience of having so much sex around me (while not myself experiencing the act). So I shared how I had had caught several couples having sex in a men's shower, catching my RA having sex, and etc.... This was quite shocking as I normally don't share this, maybe I shared this with 2~3 people at max. And I never talked to a woman anything related to sex. The good thing though, the woman didn't seem to be offended and we had a good laugh. I was amazed that I had balls to carry this out, when there were many other students in the room. Keep in mind, though, I am not attracted to her, nor I wanted to necessarily steer the conversation into the talk of sex around my life. It just happened naturally.
And lastly, I feel that I am becoming Alpha. I may be wrong about this, but I noticed that I am becoming bolder, starting to be less effected by others' opinions although I still would like to be nice that has been my nature. I also feel that people respect me more, and etc..... For this, I talk to more people, and I notice that I initiate talks quite more often than in the past. And lastly, I feel that my obsession with particular women (i.e. the hot girl in the class) or my obsession with women in general is in decline. This is quite funny, as this sub isn't about being alpha. Now, I am seriously wondering what AM6 would be like, and intrigued to start once I am done with this program, or decide to finish it.
I bought Mark Manson's Model, and begun reading it. It's an interesting thing to read, and I would take some other recommendations, if there are other good reads out there.
p.s. Oh yeah, I've seen people talking about the dreams of aliens or extraterrestrial dreams. I had two of these, in one I was communicating with aliens, and in the other one, I was an alien.
