06-15-2014, 02:20 PM
Okay, I noticed another thing with the unmasked sub. When I play it at high volume, (using the calibration method to change the volume) I started to hear a few static sound. At a lower volume, I didn't hear this, but I heard this when I put it at quite high volume. Therefore, I decided to try streaming one during my sleep. At a lower volume, to a point that I can barely hear the sub, it didn't bother my sleeping, so I may use the streaming from now on.
For the last two days, I had two dreams. The first dream was funny, it had some sexual, and some non sexual aspect as well. In the dream, I was in a family of drug dealers and I was the third son. (I'm an only child in real life BTW.) I met a girl in the, and we fell for each other pretty quick. (She was white brunette.)
The same night in the dream, I got things messed up, as someone put up a spy camera in my room, and had a spyware that was set up in the computer that almost resulted in my entire family getting busted by the cop. My eldest brother found this out, and was about to kill me for putting the business and family in jeopardy. The funny thing was that my second brother had enough of it, and he decided to kill the first brother. He did, and used the eldest brother as a bait for the police to catch. We then took off to some other location.
After we moved, the family wanted me to study in a college, getting an advanced degree, not really being involved in the drug business. They got me a two bed apartment, and the girl wanted to move in. My family and her family both got together and agreed that it was a good idea. The girl looked nervous as she was moving in, so I went to her and said "don't worry, I'm not going to rape you or hurt you. I'm not a weird pervert" And she replied rather shyly, "I wouldn't mind being raped by you." The dream ended there.
The second dream was a little different. The same girl was involved, and all of us were taking a group tour with several different friends. (A few friends from my high school time in Canada were there too.) The girl and I sat separately for some reason. After a bunch of tour programs, I was about to find this girl, but I couldn't. But instead, an Asian girl, and her mom sat across me and started talking. The mom was talking to me as though we were fiancees, telling me how much she's in love with me and etc..... I told her that the next program starts very soon that we'll need to talk later, but the woman said that she has much power and influence that she can postpone the program. Then we were talking about skiing, and different sorts of mountains (it was pretty random), and the woman was telling how we should all go and enjoy the vacation. Then the topic moved to talk about my parents, and I told them that entire family getting together may be a bit challenging, as my parents don't know how to ski. (BTW, this is no longer drug family, and it was about my actual family.) Then this woman turned and talk to me that she was surprised to see that I have so much sex drive and interest in sex, as my parents are totally opposite.(They actually do, to a point that they seem to despise the act itself.) Yeah, but how the hell would she have known?
During the entire talk, this Asian girl was staring at me with a bit of blush in her face. The girl was super shy, and rather wanted her mom to stop talking too much, and especially about the sex part. And also, at the very end of this dream, the girl from restaurant in the previous dream came and found me and found that I was talking to the mom and this Asian girl. So does this mean it would have been a love triangle? And does this project the future? I don't know if I can handle that, as I have no experience in dating nor sex.
Another thing I noticed from the dream is that these girls were attractive, but not "that" attractive. Usually this wasn't the case. Perhaps, my subconscious is telling me to lower my standards, or my perfect lover's attractive, but not super attractive?
Other than the dream, I also noticed an interesting behavior on woman. Yesterday, I went to Buffalo Wild Wings to watch the World Cup match, as I don't have ESPN at my place. I sat at the bar, and then this woman joined her group, and she just happened to sit right next to me. (Well, it really wasn't her choice, as that was the only spot for her to be with her group.) I noticed that for a few times, she would whisper to the woman sitting next to her, and they would both giggle.
I also noticed this behavior in my class too. The super hot girl in my class would whisper to the girl sitting next to her, and they would both giggle. This happened several times, and this usually happened after I say something in the class.
In fact, I noticed this behavior in the past quite often when I was a teenager. The girls would walk by and would start to giggle. In the past, I would have taken it similar to be insulted, thinking that do I look funny to you? But now my mind has changed. I now start to think that girls do this around me because they find me attractive, and they can't help but to giggle to ease the tension. Perhaps, this could be a terrible mistake in the thought, but I find that it boosts my confidence. (Is a boost in confidence from a mistaken thought a good thing or a bad thing?) Since I began noticing this behavior after using the sub, and since I started think this way, I would say this may be a change caused by the sub.
For the last two days, I had two dreams. The first dream was funny, it had some sexual, and some non sexual aspect as well. In the dream, I was in a family of drug dealers and I was the third son. (I'm an only child in real life BTW.) I met a girl in the, and we fell for each other pretty quick. (She was white brunette.)
The same night in the dream, I got things messed up, as someone put up a spy camera in my room, and had a spyware that was set up in the computer that almost resulted in my entire family getting busted by the cop. My eldest brother found this out, and was about to kill me for putting the business and family in jeopardy. The funny thing was that my second brother had enough of it, and he decided to kill the first brother. He did, and used the eldest brother as a bait for the police to catch. We then took off to some other location.
After we moved, the family wanted me to study in a college, getting an advanced degree, not really being involved in the drug business. They got me a two bed apartment, and the girl wanted to move in. My family and her family both got together and agreed that it was a good idea. The girl looked nervous as she was moving in, so I went to her and said "don't worry, I'm not going to rape you or hurt you. I'm not a weird pervert" And she replied rather shyly, "I wouldn't mind being raped by you." The dream ended there.
The second dream was a little different. The same girl was involved, and all of us were taking a group tour with several different friends. (A few friends from my high school time in Canada were there too.) The girl and I sat separately for some reason. After a bunch of tour programs, I was about to find this girl, but I couldn't. But instead, an Asian girl, and her mom sat across me and started talking. The mom was talking to me as though we were fiancees, telling me how much she's in love with me and etc..... I told her that the next program starts very soon that we'll need to talk later, but the woman said that she has much power and influence that she can postpone the program. Then we were talking about skiing, and different sorts of mountains (it was pretty random), and the woman was telling how we should all go and enjoy the vacation. Then the topic moved to talk about my parents, and I told them that entire family getting together may be a bit challenging, as my parents don't know how to ski. (BTW, this is no longer drug family, and it was about my actual family.) Then this woman turned and talk to me that she was surprised to see that I have so much sex drive and interest in sex, as my parents are totally opposite.(They actually do, to a point that they seem to despise the act itself.) Yeah, but how the hell would she have known?
During the entire talk, this Asian girl was staring at me with a bit of blush in her face. The girl was super shy, and rather wanted her mom to stop talking too much, and especially about the sex part. And also, at the very end of this dream, the girl from restaurant in the previous dream came and found me and found that I was talking to the mom and this Asian girl. So does this mean it would have been a love triangle? And does this project the future? I don't know if I can handle that, as I have no experience in dating nor sex.
Another thing I noticed from the dream is that these girls were attractive, but not "that" attractive. Usually this wasn't the case. Perhaps, my subconscious is telling me to lower my standards, or my perfect lover's attractive, but not super attractive?
Other than the dream, I also noticed an interesting behavior on woman. Yesterday, I went to Buffalo Wild Wings to watch the World Cup match, as I don't have ESPN at my place. I sat at the bar, and then this woman joined her group, and she just happened to sit right next to me. (Well, it really wasn't her choice, as that was the only spot for her to be with her group.) I noticed that for a few times, she would whisper to the woman sitting next to her, and they would both giggle.
I also noticed this behavior in my class too. The super hot girl in my class would whisper to the girl sitting next to her, and they would both giggle. This happened several times, and this usually happened after I say something in the class.
In fact, I noticed this behavior in the past quite often when I was a teenager. The girls would walk by and would start to giggle. In the past, I would have taken it similar to be insulted, thinking that do I look funny to you? But now my mind has changed. I now start to think that girls do this around me because they find me attractive, and they can't help but to giggle to ease the tension. Perhaps, this could be a terrible mistake in the thought, but I find that it boosts my confidence. (Is a boost in confidence from a mistaken thought a good thing or a bad thing?) Since I began noticing this behavior after using the sub, and since I started think this way, I would say this may be a change caused by the sub.
