05-01-2014, 04:33 AM
Almost two weeks of Stage 3 are over. This Stage is a tricky one. In the fist 10 days I didn't feel any changes so far. So whatsever happened in that time, it was under the radar.
In the last few days I felt more insecure and needy again. Maybe a sort of resistance. Yesterday was really bad. I felt a big distrust to certain people, big amount of neediness and something like hopelessness for my future. It was the first time I was thinking about quitting the program (No, I don't quit). And there was a lot of anger about manipulative people. This point is funny, because I found myself being manipulative in the past, too - in a passive niceguy-way. And it felt, like I were afraid to loose my manipulative part - in a certain way. What also bothers me is my actually low sex drive. It's because I always have had a high sex drive.
I was thinking if it would be helpful to get 1 or 2 days off to let my mind process the given information. But on the other side maybe it would be helpful to try listen even more hours/day to solve this situation. Some suggestions?
In the last few days I felt more insecure and needy again. Maybe a sort of resistance. Yesterday was really bad. I felt a big distrust to certain people, big amount of neediness and something like hopelessness for my future. It was the first time I was thinking about quitting the program (No, I don't quit). And there was a lot of anger about manipulative people. This point is funny, because I found myself being manipulative in the past, too - in a passive niceguy-way. And it felt, like I were afraid to loose my manipulative part - in a certain way. What also bothers me is my actually low sex drive. It's because I always have had a high sex drive.
I was thinking if it would be helpful to get 1 or 2 days off to let my mind process the given information. But on the other side maybe it would be helpful to try listen even more hours/day to solve this situation. Some suggestions?
