I want to give an update as I'm almost at the end of Stage 5. First, I did make contact with my old flame and the response was not bad at all. She is still very wary and afraid. Our communication started out very well and she seemed to be softening. I ,however, suppose I was too direct with what it was that I wanted and scared her. I have backed way off and we are back to square one. She basically told me she doesn't want me to go but the road will be a slow drive with no certain ending. This was causing me great distress at first but I have come to terms with the whole situation in my mind and have a much better attitude about it.
As far as how the stages are going my report is thus: stage 1 has been by far the best stage that I have done. I felt the most confident and the best through stage 1. Stage 2 and 3 I spent mostly aggravated and somewhat stressed out over my female situation. Stage 4 was neutral at best. I can't say that I felt positive but a lot of that again has to do with my female situation. Stage 5 has been better lately but it didn't start out that way. Overall I don't feel that I have changed much at all throughout the first five stages.
I have dreamed pretty much every night throughout the whole five stages. In the early going my dreams were mostly me confronting people, some I knew some I didn't, and I had some sexual dreams with my ex's. My dreams have progressed to the middle stages where I had dreams of people being killed and even killing people myself. I have had dreams where I was being chased but not caught and dreams where I was doing the chasing and did catch. I'm still having sexual dreams about my ex's and some with women I didn't recognize. I researched the meaning of dreams and it seems that I am definitely battling within myself to accept what I'm being told. I'm hoping that stage six will provide me with some great steps forward but it appears that I may need AM6 to achieve the results I'm looking for.
As far as how the stages are going my report is thus: stage 1 has been by far the best stage that I have done. I felt the most confident and the best through stage 1. Stage 2 and 3 I spent mostly aggravated and somewhat stressed out over my female situation. Stage 4 was neutral at best. I can't say that I felt positive but a lot of that again has to do with my female situation. Stage 5 has been better lately but it didn't start out that way. Overall I don't feel that I have changed much at all throughout the first five stages.
I have dreamed pretty much every night throughout the whole five stages. In the early going my dreams were mostly me confronting people, some I knew some I didn't, and I had some sexual dreams with my ex's. My dreams have progressed to the middle stages where I had dreams of people being killed and even killing people myself. I have had dreams where I was being chased but not caught and dreams where I was doing the chasing and did catch. I'm still having sexual dreams about my ex's and some with women I didn't recognize. I researched the meaning of dreams and it seems that I am definitely battling within myself to accept what I'm being told. I'm hoping that stage six will provide me with some great steps forward but it appears that I may need AM6 to achieve the results I'm looking for.
