Yea i'm not too much worried about my girlfriend, i've always been pretty alpha with her though i have a lot of weak moments which i hope to heal. It's more in my career/friends/general relationship to women that i feel i will use the alpha
http://www.sleepphones.com/ ---about to order these headphoesn because i don't want to leave my computer on all night.
Edit: Also i should add, I notice that people seem to be more a mirror of my emotions.. When I'm feeling tense people get tense, then in class yesterday i was sitting next to this chick (fairly tense myself) and I relaxed and immediately i felt her body language open up and i felt her attraction to me. Very interesting stuff. I guess i've always kind of been like that but it's more pronounced. I still get a lot of social anxiety, i feel very closed off from people most of the day, but then there are these periods where i open up into some sort of space. Once again, this isn't new but i feel more of a release/awareness since starting the program.
edit 2: It seems people are intrigued by my pain.. that's what my girlfriend said piqued her interest in the first place.. I just had this strong presence of what i was feeling (this is quiteee a while ago). I suppose this is a good track to be on as an alpha. This is a fun journey guys! Women magnet will follow, like other people (assuming i like it)
http://www.sleepphones.com/ ---about to order these headphoesn because i don't want to leave my computer on all night.
Edit: Also i should add, I notice that people seem to be more a mirror of my emotions.. When I'm feeling tense people get tense, then in class yesterday i was sitting next to this chick (fairly tense myself) and I relaxed and immediately i felt her body language open up and i felt her attraction to me. Very interesting stuff. I guess i've always kind of been like that but it's more pronounced. I still get a lot of social anxiety, i feel very closed off from people most of the day, but then there are these periods where i open up into some sort of space. Once again, this isn't new but i feel more of a release/awareness since starting the program.
edit 2: It seems people are intrigued by my pain.. that's what my girlfriend said piqued her interest in the first place.. I just had this strong presence of what i was feeling (this is quiteee a while ago). I suppose this is a good track to be on as an alpha. This is a fun journey guys! Women magnet will follow, like other people (assuming i like it)
