04-05-2014, 03:43 AM
Now I am more than 3 weeks on Stage 2. In the third week I had 2 - 3 days where I felt more needy, was watching some porn and didn't felt very good at all. But after that period it disappeared again. I looks like I am more proactive about problems instead of waiting until someone different do something about it. And I am more willing to talk about more difficult topics. I always tried to avoid difficult discussions, because I wasn't very good here. But now if something is important enough for me I am more willing to go for it.
Some other things I noticed this week: I walk more upright and I can hold better eye contact than before. Last few nights I again had some dreams about women. In one of these dreams I was with a woman and wanted to establish more physical contact. As I tried she said that she is attracted to me, but I should stop to make the physical contact the way I do, because it make her feel less attracted, and she want to stay being attracted to me. I found that dream interesting.
Some other things I noticed this week: I walk more upright and I can hold better eye contact than before. Last few nights I again had some dreams about women. In one of these dreams I was with a woman and wanted to establish more physical contact. As I tried she said that she is attracted to me, but I should stop to make the physical contact the way I do, because it make her feel less attracted, and she want to stay being attracted to me. I found that dream interesting.
