12-28-2013, 05:57 AM
(12-28-2013, 03:28 AM)baftis Wrote: I felt I want to love someone last night. I felt it so much I started crying over a scenario in my head about having a talk with an "imaginary" girlfriend. I told "her" I want to make her happy and that I'm genuinely afraid of what will be of all this because I'd feel judged. And that I felt so much of a pressure of doing the right thing that it's a burden. And I don't want that. I know I can't make the right thing every single time and that it's unrealistic of me to expect that from myself. I'm but a human being and I have a personality of my own. And that if she feels that I'm holding something back ( intimacy-related ) she should pry my head and my heart and my soul open, because I'd be OK with that.
I think that's awesome, crying is usually a sign of emotional release, and thus, progress.
All fear is illusion.
