12-27-2013, 07:41 AM
Day 13 & 14
Yesterday went surprisingly well. Nothing major to report, just that I constantly think about new situations where I encounter girls ( especially blondes ) and play a movie in my head about how this is going. The ex has been almost completely shut out, except that today I got angry for about a half an hour.
I have a "very special" talent of having scenarios and pissing myself off with them. I imagined I had a..."argument" is too much, more like "making my voice heard". And I said to her that "it was as much your fault as it was mine" and that "think about what you are accusing me and see if you find yourself in what you criticized about me". This whole thing was generated because of a revelation that I had ( well, read somewhere else, tbh, but it ranged so true to me ). What follows is what I've read ( first 2 sentences ) plus my own ramblings about it.
Love isn't about you, it's about the other. You don't get into a relationship to make yourself happy, you get into a relationship because you want to make the other happy. In order to make others happy in a healthy way, you must be happy with yourself. In order to be loved, you must BE loved by yourself : accept yourself like you are now, forgive yourself for screw-ups and mishaps ( big or small ), respect yourself and treat yourself right FIRST AND FOREMOST. Be altruistically selfish. Take care of yourself first and then you can take care of others the healthy way.
Yesterday went surprisingly well. Nothing major to report, just that I constantly think about new situations where I encounter girls ( especially blondes ) and play a movie in my head about how this is going. The ex has been almost completely shut out, except that today I got angry for about a half an hour.
I have a "very special" talent of having scenarios and pissing myself off with them. I imagined I had a..."argument" is too much, more like "making my voice heard". And I said to her that "it was as much your fault as it was mine" and that "think about what you are accusing me and see if you find yourself in what you criticized about me". This whole thing was generated because of a revelation that I had ( well, read somewhere else, tbh, but it ranged so true to me ). What follows is what I've read ( first 2 sentences ) plus my own ramblings about it.
Love isn't about you, it's about the other. You don't get into a relationship to make yourself happy, you get into a relationship because you want to make the other happy. In order to make others happy in a healthy way, you must be happy with yourself. In order to be loved, you must BE loved by yourself : accept yourself like you are now, forgive yourself for screw-ups and mishaps ( big or small ), respect yourself and treat yourself right FIRST AND FOREMOST. Be altruistically selfish. Take care of yourself first and then you can take care of others the healthy way.
What I can be, I must be!
