09-26-2010, 02:04 PM
I feel shitty right now with my sudden change in mind. Even though I had that awesome dream and things are going relatively well with this program It's hard to stay committed when I know I could be doing something better for myself. This is why I purchased the Alpha Set. I'm going to do this because I know this is probably the program that will help me the most in the area of women and improving myself. I know we never stop improving ourselves and I know I am on the path of the Alpha but I was honest with myself and I've though about all of my years in life. From elementary school to high school to now. I changed so much during the second third and fourth years of college because I found some friends that helped me start becoming who I was really meant to be. I learned some things from them that really put me down alot but they were always there for me and I could learn from them. Well after saying that only a few.. but they all wanted me to succeed because they knew that something wasn't right with me. I love them to this day but also I still know that something is not right with me. I am still too nice. Also following through on my desires... mainly with women have been a problem. Manning up in certain situations has been a problem...and believe it or not these types of problems have been the hardest to finding a solution to. I've done my best up until this point and I plan on continuing my improvement but I feel that I need the huge jump start to this complete transformation of a truly superior man I was meant to be. Therefore I am doing alpha. I decided to truly embrace the change I've desired my whole life.
I apologize to everyone for not following through on my commitment but most importantly I apologize to myself for not staying true to my deepest wants.
I've been thinking about it on and off for a week or so but I feel like this is the right thing to do. I kind of felt this from the start but I had my priorities mixed up. My first priority never was myself.. even though I'd like to think it was. It was always the women. A part of me wants people to feel envious of me... and a part of me still feels envy for others. This is absolutely unacceptable. However I am proud of myself for the amount of change I have made in this area. This used to be very bad for me. I need to rid myself of whatever little bitch left in me. It's time to man up for real.
I apologize to everyone for not following through on my commitment but most importantly I apologize to myself for not staying true to my deepest wants.
I've been thinking about it on and off for a week or so but I feel like this is the right thing to do. I kind of felt this from the start but I had my priorities mixed up. My first priority never was myself.. even though I'd like to think it was. It was always the women. A part of me wants people to feel envious of me... and a part of me still feels envy for others. This is absolutely unacceptable. However I am proud of myself for the amount of change I have made in this area. This used to be very bad for me. I need to rid myself of whatever little bitch left in me. It's time to man up for real.
