Alpha Male Training (2nd Run) [AM 5.0]

[Tiesto]

So I have been learning quite a bit of Natural Grounding, I use the 'Secret of Women' video and watch it around 5 times in a row, to remind myself about valuing women on their natural character instead of their body and face, then I go watch the 'SNSD - Echo' video for several times in a row while seeing and visualizing them in their happy and natural state, as the result of being affected by my masculine presence. I don't get emotional and cry, but the emotion I get instead is happiness and a smile. Doing NG helps with neediness more than tapping. For me tapping is better to get rid of feeling of being upset and angry, but NG is better for neediness, because I visualize myself being pursued by all these girls getting all happy and excited seeing me. I also incorporate affirmation to remind myself of important things on how I should act and do things.

Now I remind myself with affirmation not to want, need, or expect anything from anyone, especially towards women. I also avoid playing power games, and thinking negatively.

My ex has been asking my help to take her cat to the vet, before I didn't want to do it, because I was thinking negatively about her, I thought she was just going to manipulate and use me, but after re-framing my point of view, I see her as just a friend, someone who cares about her pet, and needed my help, and I love cats too, so there is no reason I shouldn't go and help her.

So I picked her up and her cat, then go to the vet, I remind myself that I don't want anything from her, and every time she tries to play games on me, I just ignore her, and don't let anything she said affect me at all. At the vet, another one of her ex called her on the phone, I did get slightly upset and jealous at first, but then I re-frame the way I see things and I just let it go, and let her talk or spend time with any guy she wants.

I remind myself that I am full of abundance, I give her help and I treat her well, because I can, not as a manipulation tactic so that I get something in return from her. So after from the vet, we went to my house, I gave her something to eat, we chat, while maintaining my view that I've trained through NG, seeing her in her natural state without wanting anything from her. Then we went to my room, she was all over me, then we end up having sex. But even after we had sex I continue to remind myself, not to expect her to get back with me as my girlfriend, I simply let her be and do whatever she wants, if the next day she goes and have sex with another guy or another one of her ex, I won't let it affect me, because I'm not expecting or wanting loyalty/exclusivity or anything else from her.

Geodude's method of combining AM 5.0, FEFT, Affirmations, and NG+Visualization, works really well. I'm still new at all these other methods, but I will continue to learn more and more.

I will end AM 5.0 on the 26th of December 2013, then I will take a week break then try out the new FYPJ 5G on the 1st of January 2014.