10-31-2013, 11:43 AM
STAGE 3 - DAY 32 - Getting off your path
When you are seeing a girl often and doubting it...
I've been thinking that I may be going off my path and maybe even using this girl that I've been seeing quite much lately.
I used to go out to meet girls all the time but since I've been seeing this girl I met one week ago, I've done it less.
Instead we go often on adventures together.. Movies, sushi, bars and things like sex on the top of a scaffolding, which we climbed, in the middle of Town Hall Square.
She's a great, cute, adventurous & beautiful girl.
She don't fit the ideal kind of girl that I see myself with though.
But when we are together, I forget about everything in the world and my focus on my path is gone. I have a hard time to concentrate the day after.
I'm thinking that I may want her too much which makes me go off my path?
But it's also because I really like and enjoy her company and giving her pleasure & orgasms.
Been pondering a bit about this..
LionMonkey Wrote:My path is to keep challenging myself and the illusion of comfort towards the ideal person and girls I see myself as/with.
I.e. not settling for less. Not going off the path.
An example from what I mean:
After sushi and adventure sex and a beer in a bar me and the girl was on our way to my place.
We pass this student-house where there is some kind of Halloween party, people dressed up and having a fun time.
My gut really told me to go there, have fun and meet girls. Take her with me and let her do whatever.
But I didn't.
The answer has appeared in me.
I'll share what's been on my mind with the whole thing:
I think this girl is great, different, fun, silly & gives good fellatio
:-)
I really like and enjoy spending time with her. Though it must NOT make me lose my path, my mission.
The two _things_ that made me not trust my gut was, the subtle fear of losing her and the comfort she brings.
(of course be empathic with her but I am who I am and I shouldn't change that because of her)
This is a bad direction towards scarcity.
Abundance is what I strive for.
If it wasn't because I was following my path, I would never had met this great girl either.
Peace,
- JL
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
