Resistance kicks into high gear...
All my resistance or all what my subconscious is trying to reason against the programming has very noticeable effects.
The need to validate from others is way up.
No desire to socialize, I just want to curl up in a corner, like a little baby.
I had nightmares, AND...
...my physical appearance has changed unfavorably, my skin seems like almost dead, there's no glow like it used to be, dark spots been formed, to sum it up I look way way older than I am.
I am no expert but I think that the resistance, more or less, is based upon fear. I think OGSF would benefit me a lot. Though I know it's in AM 6.0 but I do not think I could resist for that long because I have few others subs planned after this.
So, is it OK to compliment my Alpha training with OGSF keeping in mind that this is my first run? And, if yes, in which stage should I in-corporate it? Or whenever.
On the brighter side of the road...
I am more disciplined and focused than I have ever been, distractions worry me not, I am more aware of myself and the world around me and the most importantly I am gaining clarity over different matters that were haunting me since I started these subs.
That's all I can think right now. I need some sleep.
EDIT:
Shannon, I think you should rebuild AM 5 with OGSF in it whenever you have enough time to do so and more so if AM 5 is used as a Level I and other programs SM/WM/AM 6 as Level II. It's the base level programming where it's mostly required.
All my resistance or all what my subconscious is trying to reason against the programming has very noticeable effects.
The need to validate from others is way up.
No desire to socialize, I just want to curl up in a corner, like a little baby.
I had nightmares, AND...
...my physical appearance has changed unfavorably, my skin seems like almost dead, there's no glow like it used to be, dark spots been formed, to sum it up I look way way older than I am.
I am no expert but I think that the resistance, more or less, is based upon fear. I think OGSF would benefit me a lot. Though I know it's in AM 6.0 but I do not think I could resist for that long because I have few others subs planned after this.
So, is it OK to compliment my Alpha training with OGSF keeping in mind that this is my first run? And, if yes, in which stage should I in-corporate it? Or whenever.
On the brighter side of the road...
I am more disciplined and focused than I have ever been, distractions worry me not, I am more aware of myself and the world around me and the most importantly I am gaining clarity over different matters that were haunting me since I started these subs.
That's all I can think right now. I need some sleep.
EDIT:
Shannon, I think you should rebuild AM 5 with OGSF in it whenever you have enough time to do so and more so if AM 5 is used as a Level I and other programs SM/WM/AM 6 as Level II. It's the base level programming where it's mostly required.
STRENGTH, above all else..
