10-03-2013, 08:29 AM
Just 3 days in Stage 2 and I loving it so far, it is building upon Stage 1, I am more dominant and assertive, a lot more. I am sexually submissive but these days I am not enjoying it as I used to do before beginning Alpha/Dominant Male.
These are my thoughts nowadays..
I am strong, of course I am, but strong doesn't mean being a jerk, I am acting like a jerk, oh, I may hurt somebody, I don't want to hurt people, wait, there's a solution, be soft, oh yes..but wait, I am 'being' soft I am not feeling good, I am doing injustice? Not being myself, what about Just Be Yourself, I am not being myself, man up, be strong, no be soft, don't give a fuck, I am giving a fuck, so be strong, no problem if I appear as a jerk. Yes, STRONG, CONFIDENT, FUUUCCK!, I don't care if I hurt somebody.
Today I tasted what it really means to not give a fuck, a normal day, no socialization, feeling sad why didn't I talk? Why don't I open up? Why don't I fit it? Why don't people consider me? Why?
FUUCCCCCK!! I don't care, I got so very angry and out of that came a Strong, and more importantly a happy Man, a Free Man. I did not beat myself and asked Why? And that moment I took of control my reality, my happiness not depending upon how well I gel up with people, happy from inside, within my own reality.
Be, Do, F&*).
These are my thoughts nowadays..
I am strong, of course I am, but strong doesn't mean being a jerk, I am acting like a jerk, oh, I may hurt somebody, I don't want to hurt people, wait, there's a solution, be soft, oh yes..but wait, I am 'being' soft I am not feeling good, I am doing injustice? Not being myself, what about Just Be Yourself, I am not being myself, man up, be strong, no be soft, don't give a fuck, I am giving a fuck, so be strong, no problem if I appear as a jerk. Yes, STRONG, CONFIDENT, FUUUCCK!, I don't care if I hurt somebody.
Today I tasted what it really means to not give a fuck, a normal day, no socialization, feeling sad why didn't I talk? Why don't I open up? Why don't I fit it? Why don't people consider me? Why?
FUUCCCCCK!! I don't care, I got so very angry and out of that came a Strong, and more importantly a happy Man, a Free Man. I did not beat myself and asked Why? And that moment I took of control my reality, my happiness not depending upon how well I gel up with people, happy from inside, within my own reality.
Be, Do, F&*).
STRENGTH, above all else..
