09-20-2013, 06:24 AM
Very interesting things happening in my life:
I, without even giving a thought, went to the very edge of the second floor and stood there for 5 seconds, I don't know what made me do this, I always wanted to do it but was fearful to do so.
I am in the 'social mood' or extroverted after almost 2 months, I had an strong intuition that when I'll go to the college I would talk to people I never did before, and yes I did, but not the way I expected it due to some undeniable events.
Me: You seems to be the only one left here, where were you? ( I said it in a way like we were friends from the beginning)
Girl 1: Are you in my class? (This should give you the idea how unsocial I've been since using ASC and now, AM)
Me: (fuck you) I knew today is not a good day, anyways....
Girl 1: What's your name? (Does it get any worser
)
Me: (I told my name to her)
Girl 1: I was always wondering who he was..
Me: (
)
Another conversation with another girl
Me: Hey, did you submitted the application?
Girl 2: No (some reason which happens to be the same as mine)
Girl 2: *high fives*
and that's it..
Both girls were not giving me anything to work upon and were quite disinterested, there's a long way to go...
One thing I have noticed that anytime I feel extroverted I feel less Masculine, less Alpha, especially my voice tone, it gets weak.
Though I am happy being in the "mood", I am feeling like all the effects have faded into nothingness..
Also, I failed with my delay masturbation challenge, Day 3, going to start again. It's more of a personal challenge to me, more than anything else, I don't care about the positives/negatives of it as I only care about achieving it now. 21 days, that's it.
I, without even giving a thought, went to the very edge of the second floor and stood there for 5 seconds, I don't know what made me do this, I always wanted to do it but was fearful to do so.
I am in the 'social mood' or extroverted after almost 2 months, I had an strong intuition that when I'll go to the college I would talk to people I never did before, and yes I did, but not the way I expected it due to some undeniable events.
Me: You seems to be the only one left here, where were you? ( I said it in a way like we were friends from the beginning)
Girl 1: Are you in my class? (This should give you the idea how unsocial I've been since using ASC and now, AM)
Me: (fuck you) I knew today is not a good day, anyways....
Girl 1: What's your name? (Does it get any worser
)Me: (I told my name to her)
Girl 1: I was always wondering who he was..
Me: (
)Another conversation with another girl
Me: Hey, did you submitted the application?
Girl 2: No (some reason which happens to be the same as mine)
Girl 2: *high fives*
and that's it..
Both girls were not giving me anything to work upon and were quite disinterested, there's a long way to go...
One thing I have noticed that anytime I feel extroverted I feel less Masculine, less Alpha, especially my voice tone, it gets weak.
Though I am happy being in the "mood", I am feeling like all the effects have faded into nothingness..
Also, I failed with my delay masturbation challenge, Day 3, going to start again. It's more of a personal challenge to me, more than anything else, I don't care about the positives/negatives of it as I only care about achieving it now. 21 days, that's it.
STRENGTH, above all else..
