I changed the name of the thread and this was a long time coming.
Yesterday I had my best moment of zen yet. I teared up several times yesterday and for note I teared up today during work while listening to a song and just thinking beautiful thoughts. I also watched American Beauty and that movie put some more things in perspective for me and it's only a matter of time until I am completely at ease and peaceful in my own mind.
To continue, yesterday I pretty much had a smile on my face the whole day and I was feeling similar as to what WildFlower was feeling today. But a part of me was very aloof and neutral and I can feel this neediness is almost gone.. and the anxiety of socializing and women is the next to go and that's probably about 75%-80% good to go already. I felt relatively content today and I had fun at the office. I've been having alot more fun at the office since my first panic attack which had me in a downward spiral for a whole of 3 or 4 days. Now I can let go of negative thoughts quite easily but it's still annoying because the demon in my head just doesnt give a fuck either and it's very easy for me to still get off on the wrong foot. But like we all know this will only make me much stronger in the end.
I have also decided to run ASC all the way through Women Magnet.. or at least for the next 2-3 months so I can have it completely ingraved in my head and then after that I'll probably start either Winner's Mindset or Ultra Success. And I'll probably do Zen Attitude or Enhance Intuition or Deep Inner Peace, Serenity and Tranquility along with Alpha Male when I start that up.
And it looks like I'm the only one 2 months into Women Magnet now.. I guess I'm in Ryan's spotlight now.
Yesterday I had my best moment of zen yet. I teared up several times yesterday and for note I teared up today during work while listening to a song and just thinking beautiful thoughts. I also watched American Beauty and that movie put some more things in perspective for me and it's only a matter of time until I am completely at ease and peaceful in my own mind.
To continue, yesterday I pretty much had a smile on my face the whole day and I was feeling similar as to what WildFlower was feeling today. But a part of me was very aloof and neutral and I can feel this neediness is almost gone.. and the anxiety of socializing and women is the next to go and that's probably about 75%-80% good to go already. I felt relatively content today and I had fun at the office. I've been having alot more fun at the office since my first panic attack which had me in a downward spiral for a whole of 3 or 4 days. Now I can let go of negative thoughts quite easily but it's still annoying because the demon in my head just doesnt give a fuck either and it's very easy for me to still get off on the wrong foot. But like we all know this will only make me much stronger in the end.
I have also decided to run ASC all the way through Women Magnet.. or at least for the next 2-3 months so I can have it completely ingraved in my head and then after that I'll probably start either Winner's Mindset or Ultra Success. And I'll probably do Zen Attitude or Enhance Intuition or Deep Inner Peace, Serenity and Tranquility along with Alpha Male when I start that up.
And it looks like I'm the only one 2 months into Women Magnet now.. I guess I'm in Ryan's spotlight now.
