08-28-2013, 11:03 AM
I'm really going through a phase of grounding.
An air of "challenge me" is what I'm sensing constantly.
Having a lots of doubts with this lately but it's mostly internal and people don't notice this but only me.
Also about what I initially intended, to be more social and meet new guys but I've noticed so many lame dudes that only few guys who are by themselves seems cool and chill enough to befriend.
It's also a bit contradicting with this new sense of feeling like not giving a fvck throughout my day but at the same time to be open and socialize with other guys I don't know.
Had one of those lethal regrets today where a fvcking cute girl make eye-contact, looks down and smiles twice but because of social pressure, and I was thinking about not hurting the other girl beside me and next to her, that I wasn't able to speak to her.
Fvck that shit.
There's the life-long test
that happens all the time,
if you are aware,
where you think in the moment
"what am I doing?"
and
"am I expressing myself?"
'what am I doing' could come from a paradigm of,
"is what I'm doing right now what I REALLY want?"
or
"am I leading this interaction in a direction I want?"
'am I expressing myself enough?' could come from a paradigm of,
"I'm not enough."
By the evidence of my experiences, it is as simple as (small-talking) and leading and inviting the girl.
All the expressing, high-energy kind of thing is really not needed. It can easily communicate that "you are not enough".
Where an alpha-males paradigm is "There's no reason I'm not enough".
An air of "challenge me" is what I'm sensing constantly.
Having a lots of doubts with this lately but it's mostly internal and people don't notice this but only me.
Also about what I initially intended, to be more social and meet new guys but I've noticed so many lame dudes that only few guys who are by themselves seems cool and chill enough to befriend.
It's also a bit contradicting with this new sense of feeling like not giving a fvck throughout my day but at the same time to be open and socialize with other guys I don't know.
Had one of those lethal regrets today where a fvcking cute girl make eye-contact, looks down and smiles twice but because of social pressure, and I was thinking about not hurting the other girl beside me and next to her, that I wasn't able to speak to her.
Fvck that shit.
There's the life-long test
that happens all the time,
if you are aware,
where you think in the moment
"what am I doing?"
and
"am I expressing myself?"
'what am I doing' could come from a paradigm of,
"is what I'm doing right now what I REALLY want?"
or
"am I leading this interaction in a direction I want?"
'am I expressing myself enough?' could come from a paradigm of,
"I'm not enough."
By the evidence of my experiences, it is as simple as (small-talking) and leading and inviting the girl.
All the expressing, high-energy kind of thing is really not needed. It can easily communicate that "you are not enough".
Where an alpha-males paradigm is "There's no reason I'm not enough".
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
