07-13-2013, 01:18 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-13-2013, 01:32 PM by Leroy_Willis.)
Day 5
over the past days I've noticed periods of irritation at every little thing and I hate people, It lasts approx 8hours and comes with very low motivation.
I was expecting this from reading other peoples journals but it hasn't been as bad as I thought, all I do is go dolo (ride solo
) and everthing is fine.
Last night: Vivid dreams with incredibly complex action filled storylines. The interesting part was that recently my dreams have included pseudo nightmares of being beta/ignored or abandoned by friends. however this has switched around for example one segment of my dream was me and my 6th form year (Start of most insecurities) at a military training camp. We were all told we had to climb a wire fence and cross sand dunes with PT instructor on our back. I thought i was losing all the way through but at the end I looked up and behind me to see nobody had even cleared the fence. I think this could be metaphor for being better than i think.
It matches life events much to close to be a coincedence.
Has anyone else noticed metaphorical dreams?
Leroy
PS. was sexually harassed by a drunk MILF while doing my workout in the park ("I wanna see what you got under those short shorts" and " nice socks... get ya kit off sweetheart" gotta love england lol). Instead of getting awkward I just shouted back a "Thank you". Normally my voice would have gone up an octave, not today,, which is progress.
over the past days I've noticed periods of irritation at every little thing and I hate people, It lasts approx 8hours and comes with very low motivation.
I was expecting this from reading other peoples journals but it hasn't been as bad as I thought, all I do is go dolo (ride solo
) and everthing is fine.Last night: Vivid dreams with incredibly complex action filled storylines. The interesting part was that recently my dreams have included pseudo nightmares of being beta/ignored or abandoned by friends. however this has switched around for example one segment of my dream was me and my 6th form year (Start of most insecurities) at a military training camp. We were all told we had to climb a wire fence and cross sand dunes with PT instructor on our back. I thought i was losing all the way through but at the end I looked up and behind me to see nobody had even cleared the fence. I think this could be metaphor for being better than i think.
It matches life events much to close to be a coincedence.
Has anyone else noticed metaphorical dreams?
Leroy
PS. was sexually harassed by a drunk MILF while doing my workout in the park ("I wanna see what you got under those short shorts" and " nice socks... get ya kit off sweetheart" gotta love england lol). Instead of getting awkward I just shouted back a "Thank you". Normally my voice would have gone up an octave, not today,, which is progress.
