05-20-2013, 09:59 PM
I have been finding myself becoming more and more impatient to move on as late, but a part of me also knows I'm not quite done yet with Voice. I've also been "forgetting" to put my player on loop or even start it up or...
I think this is some small bit of lingering fear-based resistance. For some reason there's a part of me that's afraid of developing the most feminine voice I possibly can.
Why would I be afraid of that? Well. It's the same part of me I think that's surprised when I hear someone call me "miss" and feels disturbed whenever it notices my developing curves... There's some small lingering doubt left somewhere in the recesses of my mind that this is really what I ought to be doing.
And that part of me seems to just generally dislike change of any sort. It would rather just cower in a corner and let the world slip by around me.
I am going to pull myself through though. I am going to complete this program before I continue on to LTU. Even if I have to drag that part of me that's resisting kicking and screaming the entire way.
I think this is some small bit of lingering fear-based resistance. For some reason there's a part of me that's afraid of developing the most feminine voice I possibly can.
Why would I be afraid of that? Well. It's the same part of me I think that's surprised when I hear someone call me "miss" and feels disturbed whenever it notices my developing curves... There's some small lingering doubt left somewhere in the recesses of my mind that this is really what I ought to be doing.
And that part of me seems to just generally dislike change of any sort. It would rather just cower in a corner and let the world slip by around me.
I am going to pull myself through though. I am going to complete this program before I continue on to LTU. Even if I have to drag that part of me that's resisting kicking and screaming the entire way.
